And I thought it was getting better
apparently my luck has gotten me stranded.....
Birthday was okay .. ppl bailed .. expect nothing from anyone or you will always be disappointed
Went to Kalahari with the boy .. it was okay then went back to the hotel and he drank till he forgot he was wrong!
A huge fight happened which this time I actually didn't start.. ended up with him kicking me out bc he was drunk and wanting to fight , so he left me stranded 2 hrs away from home in the outside of a hotel... hurtful words were said fears were made and eyes cried!
What a fucking way to end a nice get away.... that is it ... give only 1 chance for 2 will make you look and feel stupid
i will never trust his hurtful ways ...
he owes me $400 ..I will prob never get that back... he called my mother and lied to her , saying I started t and he waited for me to get a ride home ..he never did
I feel so many emotions right now...
I feel sad bc we ended something we had for 3yrs , that I will never kiss him again or hold him or tell him I love you again, sad that this was the end of our relationship!
I feel angry that he could do this to me ! That he got mad at something so petty that I didn't even start! That he acted the way he did ! That he kicked me out and stranded me and said the cruel hurtful things he did ! That he lied to my mother about the whole thing!!!!!!!!
I feel like at the same time I shouldn't take this and move on , like the fight during the summer was bad enough this was his last chance, now i cando whatever I like .........
iI don't want to return to his arms but at the same time I'm longing .......
I keep telling myself and everyone I will never deal with him again and that he fucked up for the last time , yet my gut is telling me its not over............
had my family party today and all I wanted to do was cry the whole time and run away from it ... I sat there with no conversation and with a look of despair on my face... barely any of my family showed ... what a miserable day .
I am going into hiding and never coming out
I'm shaken by the thunder and struck by the lightening ...
apparently my luck has gotten me stranded.....
Birthday was okay .. ppl bailed .. expect nothing from anyone or you will always be disappointed
Went to Kalahari with the boy .. it was okay then went back to the hotel and he drank till he forgot he was wrong!
A huge fight happened which this time I actually didn't start.. ended up with him kicking me out bc he was drunk and wanting to fight , so he left me stranded 2 hrs away from home in the outside of a hotel... hurtful words were said fears were made and eyes cried!
What a fucking way to end a nice get away.... that is it ... give only 1 chance for 2 will make you look and feel stupid
i will never trust his hurtful ways ...
he owes me $400 ..I will prob never get that back... he called my mother and lied to her , saying I started t and he waited for me to get a ride home ..he never did
I feel so many emotions right now...
I feel sad bc we ended something we had for 3yrs , that I will never kiss him again or hold him or tell him I love you again, sad that this was the end of our relationship!
I feel angry that he could do this to me ! That he got mad at something so petty that I didn't even start! That he acted the way he did ! That he kicked me out and stranded me and said the cruel hurtful things he did ! That he lied to my mother about the whole thing!!!!!!!!
I feel like at the same time I shouldn't take this and move on , like the fight during the summer was bad enough this was his last chance, now i cando whatever I like .........
iI don't want to return to his arms but at the same time I'm longing .......
I keep telling myself and everyone I will never deal with him again and that he fucked up for the last time , yet my gut is telling me its not over............
had my family party today and all I wanted to do was cry the whole time and run away from it ... I sat there with no conversation and with a look of despair on my face... barely any of my family showed ... what a miserable day .
I am going into hiding and never coming out
I'm shaken by the thunder and struck by the lightening ...
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vegacula:
I know exactly how you feel, my ex left me three times over things that I had no control over, he said hurtful things, I knew I didn't deserve what I was being put through, but as you said, there's that feeling in your gut that things just aren't quite finished yet. My advice is to talk to him, try to get some answers, if ANYTHING comes from it at all, it would be a sense of closure, even if its just a teeeeeny bit, but, that's just me. *e-hugs* I hope things get better for you, xoxo, vega
toxic:
lots of hugs if you need an ear to vent to I'm here 