laiden

I like it better when you don't speak , when our eyes meet then hit the ground , i like it when i'm upside down and your on the floor laying next to me , breathing heavily .. i like it when our hads touch awkwardly yet we want to keep them there so we can see that we mean something more then just looks and photobooks , and wild stories of undenying fairy tales, i like it better when your heart might sway , makes me take my breath away , when i know theres a catch and your the bait to get the fish , i like it better when you know i'm not getting better so a tacky text will suffice , saying something unordinarily nice , i like it better when i can tell that i have love that hasn't gone to hell.....
i like that i like the way you liked the way we liked the world in each others stare
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its better but its not ,

i'm vacant and i know what we started can never be re finish , i'm numb to this , this dramatization of every living organisum on this forsaken planet. I know our hearts mean well but our brains know better then to bite off this misinterpration of what love can be , your my all and my greatest down fall ... i will kill you and you will tear me apart ... its not right but i can't end it , i just sweep it under the rug , no longer truly looking to obtain affection else where , just ignoraning my senses so i can pass through the days ... nothing feels in place and you know that , you torture me with the control , then act surprised by the outcome .. i long to break out and denonate to self destruct , but in the end it will harm beyond recongition.. i know better at this point tho i wished i didn't ... you are gone and so am i , tho we act like its not forever, this is the end , the rest is comfort ,









How can i remember yesterday when yesterday feels like a dream?