I wrote a whole blog but it was really nothing but me bitching about my last two jobs, which I've noticed I'm getting a little sick of bitching about. Of course now I've noticed in conversation I'll bitch about jobs I've had 4 or 5 years ago. It's getting a little old. So for this blog let's stick with the bullet points and make it snappy.
I'm still unemployed. This is a good and bad thing. Good because I don't have a shitty job getting me down. Bad because it's causing everything else to get me down. Fancy that, money is important!
My sleep has gotten so bad lately that I've started to lose my mind. Last night I woke up from a dream where I was failing out of high school (I'm 7 years out of high school and never failed out). I then laid in bed thinking I was 18 and was incredibly scared that I had to tell my family and friends that I was failing school. It took maybe a good 20 minutes for me to realize that I was actually 25 and in no danger of failing high school. Drugs were oddly not involved.
There's not a single redeeming quality about Memphis. There sure as hell aren't any quality people here, that's for sure.
I miss Austin, and I curse Blizzard for being such a shitty place to work that I had to get out of the entire state to recover. I had a good life there and didn't notice until it was too late to go back.
The shittiest people in Austin were better than the best people in Memphis.
I've started drinking again. This is good for me as I love the feeling that alcohol provides (and really anything that makes me slightly out of my mind) but I have to be careful to avoid the problems it can cause. No more 3am trips to the hospital or calls to the police.
My depression and anxiety are getting worse. Hiding them is getting even harder. No idea what to do now that I don't have health insurance. Ride the wave and hope it doesn't eat me alive, I guess.
Other than that not much to say. Things aren't going so well so sorry for being such a downer. Hopefully next time there will be a few more positive things to say.
I'm still unemployed. This is a good and bad thing. Good because I don't have a shitty job getting me down. Bad because it's causing everything else to get me down. Fancy that, money is important!
My sleep has gotten so bad lately that I've started to lose my mind. Last night I woke up from a dream where I was failing out of high school (I'm 7 years out of high school and never failed out). I then laid in bed thinking I was 18 and was incredibly scared that I had to tell my family and friends that I was failing school. It took maybe a good 20 minutes for me to realize that I was actually 25 and in no danger of failing high school. Drugs were oddly not involved.
There's not a single redeeming quality about Memphis. There sure as hell aren't any quality people here, that's for sure.
I miss Austin, and I curse Blizzard for being such a shitty place to work that I had to get out of the entire state to recover. I had a good life there and didn't notice until it was too late to go back.
The shittiest people in Austin were better than the best people in Memphis.
I've started drinking again. This is good for me as I love the feeling that alcohol provides (and really anything that makes me slightly out of my mind) but I have to be careful to avoid the problems it can cause. No more 3am trips to the hospital or calls to the police.
My depression and anxiety are getting worse. Hiding them is getting even harder. No idea what to do now that I don't have health insurance. Ride the wave and hope it doesn't eat me alive, I guess.
Other than that not much to say. Things aren't going so well so sorry for being such a downer. Hopefully next time there will be a few more positive things to say.
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I am sorry about your sleep. It sucks for me too, sleeping without you for 3 hours isn't pleasant on my sleeping either. but you know that
a bunch of my friends are always raving about memphis, how is it really that bad?
obviously much of it is seedy but people from around here are sorta into that kinda thing
given the chance id like to visit it but im a big softy for good old 50s soul, blues, and rock and roll music
and yeah id fit right in at graceland