Heellllloooo my beautiful Alt Community!!!! I am so nervous/excited writing this blogie blog!! (Why I’m so late to finally be posting this) I am not the best with my words, I’m guessing that’s why I like to express myself in other ways! But I really try to keep that growthy growth goin’!!! Just here challenging myself even if it seems little to others, it really means a whole lot to me.
I want to introduce myself to this amazing community that I love so dearly!! I am here to let go of fear and to put my whole self out there, soooo here we areee eeep!! 🥰🙊🖤✨
I am Lady Vespertine!!
I have been a fangirl of the SG/Alt community longer than I can remember. I will never forget finding and watching my friend’s older sister’s Suicide Girls DVD when I was prob 14-15 yrs old!! I was forever changed. I felt I belonged, and wanted to be a part of THAT! It took me a very long time battling mental heath/body image issues along with unhealthy past relationships to be able to live my life the way I wanted to. Being able to do things like modeling and all types of dancing/performing has been a dream come true. I am so lucky to have the most precious partner who supports me and how I choose to live MY life. He is a true inspiration and shows me that I actually am worthy of a life filled with love and happiness and I am endlessly grateful!!
Well, I guess I’m just diving right in haha🙈😂…
I was born/raised in Southern California and I now have been residing in Portland, OR. I am sooo fortunate to be able to call this city my home. I didn’t feel that often in CA unless I was with my family or by the sea!! I truly feel like I belong in Portland! Being able to escape to the beautiful forest combined with the amazing music scene that I love so dearly, hasn’t been able to be beat for me ☺️🖤✨
Anyways, I am reeeally enjoying my journey with SG so far, in such a short amount of time. I have met some really amazing people. Everyone I have encountered or worked with have been so kind and welcoming!!! It has been an extremely humbling experience with all the good this industry has to offer.
A huge moment of inspiration for me was the last time I went to see the Blackheart Burlesque perform in CA. It was my 3rd time seeing the show and I won tickets from the scavenger hunt they did. I got to meet some of my favorite Suicide Girls and was fangirling so hard haha, it was truly an amazing experience. The girls were so sweet to me and full of compliments, I definitely was sooo so bashful!!🙈🙈 Besides the sweet compliments and love, @sunshine ’s response to me saying “I wish I was a Suicide Girl” of “Well why aren’t you?” really stuck with me and was a moment of true confidence. She told me I definitely could do it and that there is no reason I shouldn’t try if that is what I really want to do.🥺😭🖤✨
Thank you so fxcking much for the encouragement @sunshine , @jennings , @liryc , and @sunny it truly stayed with me through my journey of growth and self-love. Sending you babes all the love!!😘🖤✨
(got off work and mobbed to San Diego)
(Got changed=Bathroom mirror selfie😝)
(Fangirling w/ the babes documented🥺🖤)
A few years after that I finally took action and chose to actually work towards the life I’ve always imagined for myself. I am so grateful to: have my Debut Set in member review *internally screaming* 😂, express myself through what I love doing: modeling, dance, aerial arts, etc., and of course share a beautiful healthy life with my loving, supportive partner and our sweet toasted marshmallow pup Momo!! 🥺🖤✨
(My babe and I at our fav Cemetery 🥰🖤)
(My babygirl Momo and I 🥺🖤)
I do sometimes have to remind myself that before this I had a lot to overcome to really grow and find myself. Life is wild and getting through that pivotal point in my life was hard, but I made it out alive!🙌 Welp, if you’re still here reading thank you so much and I appreciate you!!😚🖤 I hope to connect with as many of you in this beautiful community as I can and to keep the amazing experiences going!!
Sooo much love to you all!!!
-Lady Vespertine 😚🖤✨
(The first is from my debut and the second is from my new set that comes out in about 2 weeks 🥺👉👈🖤)
@missy @penny @sean @lemon
