BAH!
My mind has gone to poop.
My boyfriend has been making more of an effort towards us which is great but next week he is going away on a boys week for Taladega races. (He goes every year)
Lately he's been texting these two girls, both he met at Dega last year, and i've never met them. He erases the texts after he has sent them, and the incoming ones, then he tells me after confronting him that they are coming too and are meeting up with him down there.
APPARENTLY they don't have race tickets, so why would they go all the way there? Just to meet up with my Boyfriend? I thought it was a boys week? I thought thats why i wasn't invited?
Then (i control his Myspace music profile) i went on it to download some remixes someone sent him, and i saw a message froma chick i've never met but am awkward about (Mainly because he was in a hotel room with her when ic alled him once and awkwardly had a 30 second convo with him) and the message said something like "I had fun last night, even though you cheated!"
Right away i was like "WHA???" then i realised that why would a girl say that? Unless she didn't mean 'cheating as in on me' but cheated as in like a card game or something.
I'm so confused.
That happened a few months back, so i'm not going to bring it up, id' rather just leave it *naive*.
So with the no sex, the weird messages, the deleting of texts the' walk into another room' phone calls, no kissing, no "You're pretty" no compliments at all. We don't hug. Nothing.
I'm starting to think i'm the most unattractive chick in the world, and it's quite depressing. Usually i'm comfie with myself, who i am and what i do. Lately, i'm confused and hurt, and i feel like i can't look in the mirror anymore.
What the fuck?
My mind has gone to poop.
My boyfriend has been making more of an effort towards us which is great but next week he is going away on a boys week for Taladega races. (He goes every year)
Lately he's been texting these two girls, both he met at Dega last year, and i've never met them. He erases the texts after he has sent them, and the incoming ones, then he tells me after confronting him that they are coming too and are meeting up with him down there.
APPARENTLY they don't have race tickets, so why would they go all the way there? Just to meet up with my Boyfriend? I thought it was a boys week? I thought thats why i wasn't invited?
Then (i control his Myspace music profile) i went on it to download some remixes someone sent him, and i saw a message froma chick i've never met but am awkward about (Mainly because he was in a hotel room with her when ic alled him once and awkwardly had a 30 second convo with him) and the message said something like "I had fun last night, even though you cheated!"
Right away i was like "WHA???" then i realised that why would a girl say that? Unless she didn't mean 'cheating as in on me' but cheated as in like a card game or something.
I'm so confused.
That happened a few months back, so i'm not going to bring it up, id' rather just leave it *naive*.
So with the no sex, the weird messages, the deleting of texts the' walk into another room' phone calls, no kissing, no "You're pretty" no compliments at all. We don't hug. Nothing.
I'm starting to think i'm the most unattractive chick in the world, and it's quite depressing. Usually i'm comfie with myself, who i am and what i do. Lately, i'm confused and hurt, and i feel like i can't look in the mirror anymore.
What the fuck?
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duskrunner:
i would have to agree that this is BS what hes doing coming from a guy s point of view thats just messed up and rough.. id move on to something bigger and better. and for him NOT to say "You're pretty" when ever he sees you thats also messed up cuz damn you are fine!! any who thats my 2 cents <no change please> 
synyster_uk:
I think he must be really blind or just plain stupid. You are stunning and he really does not deserve someone like you.