So tomorrow i'm going into the inpatient unit and staying there for two weeks. I'm not only getting off the codeine now but my clonazepam (like valium) aswell which is a huge step for me as i've been using it for about 3/4 years. So i'll be completely clean. Scary. 
So i won't be online for two weeks.. well i have my cell but it's...
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Aint so bad when I think about it
I can get through this
Life aint so hard with you not around, yeah
I think I'll make it on through
Oh yes I miss the company
And then my friends remind me you aint who I need it from
I'll bet there's plenty more
I'm feeling free and so happy
I'm realizing I've survived to fight...
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I can get through this
Life aint so hard with you not around, yeah
I think I'll make it on through
Oh yes I miss the company
And then my friends remind me you aint who I need it from
I'll bet there's plenty more
I'm feeling free and so happy
I'm realizing I've survived to fight...
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english_dave:
Wicked girl! Congrats!
Ok so update. I went into the detox clinic expecting to be admitted however they said they really only admit people who don't have a safe place to detox, which i do. They're going to give me a drug called suboxone which is meant to lessen the withdrawal symptoms and also quicken the time the withdrawal takes. I saw them on Monday, they were meant...
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bearnked:
enjoying who you are is a very good thing! Good luck to ya! Chat's always here to try an help ya and give ya lots of support!!! <33333
the_deacon:
good luck with getting clean. i just went through a long process with a recent girlfriend. we are no longer together and she continues to have relapses. It is hard. So Good luck and think positive.
I feel completely isolated from everyone on earth. I wish I had someone to talk to about things, it helps somewhat but i never feel any sort of connectedness like i used to. It's been years and i havent been able to form any new relationships of any worth. I haven't done anything of any worth actually. I want this to end, this nothingness. Also...
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the_deacon:
Chin up...I have had meaningless relationships for some time now myself. Now I am working on ME being happy...it is a long working process. once i do this, maybe i can be confident enough to share that with someone else. I can honestly say i know how you feel
So i'm off to rehab in Australia within the next couple of days.
If good vibes exist, send them.
If good vibes exist, send them.
So i've been feeling a great need to vent lately. And suddenly I remembered there was such a thing as blogs and that you can just take a large dump and leave it for people to catch a whift of.
Anyway.
So everything's pretty normal - i'm thinking rehab is now my only option because i've now tried three times to quit the nurofen plus...
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Anyway.
So everything's pretty normal - i'm thinking rehab is now my only option because i've now tried three times to quit the nurofen plus...
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lightandshade:
Mandy. First off, hugs and such. I love you. I do not want to see you dead, ok? I mean, if I have to move to NZ and be your creepy old man option, so be it 
But seriously, GET INTO REHAB PRONTO. Tell your parents about your problem. You need their support / asskicking. You need to get yourself well, that is your first priority.
love you,
gary
But seriously, GET INTO REHAB PRONTO. Tell your parents about your problem. You need their support / asskicking. You need to get yourself well, that is your first priority.
love you,
gary
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muddy36:
and by all those needy people, you mean me. hahaha
kultboy:
Thanks for the show in chat lady. Enjoy your strawberry schnapps and coke. You always make lurking pleasant. Hehehe.
Enjoy your strawberry schnapps and coke. You always make lurking pleasant. Hehehe.So i think it's safe to say now that it's been 7 days and i'm through the detox that i've successfully come off the codeine. I was taking an average of 20 or more a day of nurofen plus for around 5 months and slowly (or quickly i don't even know) giving myself kidney failure in the process.
I no longer feel so bloated and...
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veehaitch:
wow thats awesome that your getting over that miranda, and that dress will be so sexy on you
darksaiph:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
have a drink for me too!!
enjoy
have a drink for me too!!
enjoy
actually looking forward to my 21st how unlike me.
have the dress perfect venue parents paying the tab and an awesome playlist.
Happy happy happy.
Of course there's the question of whether anyone will show or not but oh well.
have the dress perfect venue parents paying the tab and an awesome playlist.
Happy happy happy.
Of course there's the question of whether anyone will show or not but oh well.
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lightandshade:
Oh darling, I would be there! But, alas, umm, yeah. I'm in the wrong hemisphere. But I'll still be thinking of you and taxes... 
jace:
If I were in NZ I'd come and get drunk with you. 
moving in two days woot woot.
muddy36:
finally get everything packed???
If it matters at all, I'm getting myself off of painkillers right now. I don't have the help of rehab. I am going through it by myself.
So I hope you do well and I do know how you feel. It IS scary. Because I'm highly addicted to them and I don't feel so hot right now... plus, sobriety sucks.