First things first i'm still clean. Well, I have weed every now and then but that has been because of the immense stress i've been facing after being kicked out of our flat. Well, I left voluntarily but otherwise I would have had a black mark on my name. My flatmate was the one who fucked it up; coming home drunk and 3am and screaming and yelling. THEN - when i find this beautiful amazing new house, he moves in straight away the day i sign the forms without my permission and gets drunk there that night. Acted like a child at fucking christmas unwrapping presents that did not belong to him. I did all the work - it's actually my fucking flat. Hmm. So i'm giving him a weeks notice and he's out. So much stress. I have this girl Hanna who is now in love with me and acts like a puppy - following me around, sleeping outside my fucking door? It's insane. She thinks mental illness and drug addictions are 'cool' or somehow make you more interesting and mysterious. So of course she idolises me. I basically use her for weed, she's ok company, but since she joined this flatmate in the escapades yesterday running around and finding a place to build a tree hut???? and about living in my walk in wardrobe. Yes i have a walk in wardrobe and an ensuite. I worked my ass off to find this place and get it. I made myself ill doing it. So it's time to wash out all the immature shit out of my life - which is Rhys and Hanna. The disrepect he showed yesterday was insane. He has no manners. Spoilt. I don't want to live in a drinking nest with two alcoholics, one of which doesn't even live there.
Anyway I am still clean, it's been amazing, i've ressurected (sp) old friendships, people are constantly saying how much i've changed, that i'm a woman now.. I have an amazing relationship with my other flatmate and everything is going great. The new house is utterly amazing - looks out onto very very dense bush and has a bay window floor to ceiling which shows that view in all it's glory. Garden of native NZ plants, lots of room to grow new things and the landlord told me to go right ahead and plant want I want; go crazy. We have a beautiful deck with seating that gets sun at all hours of the day. Beautiful polished wood floors inside with a huge kitchen which has a bench that is so long it screams for bar stools.
Anyone understand why i don't want this tarnished by drunken 23 year olds who act like 12 year olds?
Kicking him out - be gone - get out - and my life will be almost perfect.
Well still without my love but i've been doing that for a long time and I just have to wait a few months to see him in Brisbane.
Major blog vomit.
Anyway I am still clean, it's been amazing, i've ressurected (sp) old friendships, people are constantly saying how much i've changed, that i'm a woman now.. I have an amazing relationship with my other flatmate and everything is going great. The new house is utterly amazing - looks out onto very very dense bush and has a bay window floor to ceiling which shows that view in all it's glory. Garden of native NZ plants, lots of room to grow new things and the landlord told me to go right ahead and plant want I want; go crazy. We have a beautiful deck with seating that gets sun at all hours of the day. Beautiful polished wood floors inside with a huge kitchen which has a bench that is so long it screams for bar stools.
Anyone understand why i don't want this tarnished by drunken 23 year olds who act like 12 year olds?
Kicking him out - be gone - get out - and my life will be almost perfect.
Well still without my love but i've been doing that for a long time and I just have to wait a few months to see him in Brisbane.
Major blog vomit.
hodssorrow:
Good work conquering an addiction is fricking hard its one of the reason why I refuse any drug treatments. There's no harm in a little weed every now and then, I don't know if I could survive an entire semester of uni if I didn't have some occasionally.
beez_kneez:
gardening with native plants is awesome.