This morning was really wonderful.
Took a walk, and actually took more than a passing glance at the old Victorian homes that litter my block. I didn't care if anyone thought I was weird to just stand in front of a random house, I just never really ever looked at them, and I know that if we moved and I didn't get the chance to, I would regret it.
And with it being fall, I love getting to crunch the leaves under my feet. ^.^
In about two and a half hours I have to go and take some equivalency tests to make sure I am competent enough to go through the free CNA program through the workforce center I have been working through. I am not worried about the tests, I can do basic math, and I am pretty great with reading comprehension, so yeah. ^.^
I am worried about my background check. Something like this happened with my husband also, he plead to a lesser degree and they still put that he had been convicted of the worse crime. The same thing sort of happened with me, I plead to a Disorderly Conduct and on the search engine that the workforce lady uses, says I was convicted of a Misdemeanor, which I wasn't, Disorderly Conduct is a PETTY Misdemeanor. So I have to get that shit figured out, otherwise I might get kicked from the program.
I am trying my very damnedest not to over think all of this. I know that if I do, I will go crazy with anxiety and then in the end if it doesn't work out, I will be crushed from the disappointment. So I am heading it off in the beginning.
I am also trying really hard not to let James get to me. I love the man to death, but he is so fucking negative and sensitive about everything, and its just really draining. I can't ever have a bad day because his was WAY worse, I can't ever be mad at him, or have an issue with anything, or his defenses go up, its like living with a skittish dog.
But I am crossing my fingers and saying a little hopeful prayer under my breath. We really need this, we need to move out of this hole of an apartment, and actually have something to show for all of this soul sucking hard work we've done and shit we've had to muddle through. Sigh. Please.
Took a walk, and actually took more than a passing glance at the old Victorian homes that litter my block. I didn't care if anyone thought I was weird to just stand in front of a random house, I just never really ever looked at them, and I know that if we moved and I didn't get the chance to, I would regret it.
And with it being fall, I love getting to crunch the leaves under my feet. ^.^
In about two and a half hours I have to go and take some equivalency tests to make sure I am competent enough to go through the free CNA program through the workforce center I have been working through. I am not worried about the tests, I can do basic math, and I am pretty great with reading comprehension, so yeah. ^.^
I am worried about my background check. Something like this happened with my husband also, he plead to a lesser degree and they still put that he had been convicted of the worse crime. The same thing sort of happened with me, I plead to a Disorderly Conduct and on the search engine that the workforce lady uses, says I was convicted of a Misdemeanor, which I wasn't, Disorderly Conduct is a PETTY Misdemeanor. So I have to get that shit figured out, otherwise I might get kicked from the program.
I am trying my very damnedest not to over think all of this. I know that if I do, I will go crazy with anxiety and then in the end if it doesn't work out, I will be crushed from the disappointment. So I am heading it off in the beginning.
I am also trying really hard not to let James get to me. I love the man to death, but he is so fucking negative and sensitive about everything, and its just really draining. I can't ever have a bad day because his was WAY worse, I can't ever be mad at him, or have an issue with anything, or his defenses go up, its like living with a skittish dog.
But I am crossing my fingers and saying a little hopeful prayer under my breath. We really need this, we need to move out of this hole of an apartment, and actually have something to show for all of this soul sucking hard work we've done and shit we've had to muddle through. Sigh. Please.
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Hope everything works out!