Mom bought me peppermint ice cream,
thinking it would cheer me up.
Instead it made me cry right there in the car,
made me remember birdsalls and blake.
blake and bike rides and eating ice cream on concrete slabs.
I want to die, to get the inevitable over, to stop pretending.
give my life a point.
maybe ill actually succeed this time, lets hope.
ive never been good at finishing anything.
thinking it would cheer me up.
Instead it made me cry right there in the car,
made me remember birdsalls and blake.
blake and bike rides and eating ice cream on concrete slabs.
I want to die, to get the inevitable over, to stop pretending.
give my life a point.
maybe ill actually succeed this time, lets hope.
ive never been good at finishing anything.
Cheer up okay? Meep :-)