What's with everyone telling me i need to be normal? I can't be normal.It's not easy being LadyDeath with all the ghosts of my past always haunting me. Do you know what it's like seein your mom OD on drugs when your just 5 years old. Do you know what it's like being beat and raped when your just 12 years old. How about holding your best friend in your arms as she lays there fucking dieing and bleeding all over you cause she slit her wrists and there's not a damn thing you can do about it. Seeing your own brother battle the alcohol demons or seeing your sister turn to prostitution just so she can pay for her kids surgery. How about seeing 3 of your little cousins in caskets cause some drunk mother fucker crossed the whiite line. I'm fucking 21 and I've already seen more then I should have. I lived on the fucking streets cause I didn't have that love that people are always talking about from their parents. My father was always busy at work and my mother was always high or out fucking some guy. Now you see why I am the way I am. I've tried to conquer these demons and leave them in the past. They just keep on resurfaceing. i am who I am and I would not change that. Because I am strong just maybe I'm not strong enough to conquer my demons and I do live a life of hell cause of them. Maybe one day I will have enough strength to conquer them until that happens I will always be abnormal.
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"normal" in the usual social sense is just a way to get a certain kind of homogenous life in this world. not everyone wants it.
so to hell with normal as long as one can maintain themselves and not impenge on others around them.
I managed to calm the hypers some with a hot shower and a screwdriver...the drink that is...