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I am a Suicide Girl. I might not have artfully captured pictures of me baring my sexy body invarious states of undress, but I am! My piercings are only in each of my ear lobes and my tattoo, a pentacle in the center of my back, is minor but being a Suicide Girl is more than just physical. I am confident, quirky, sexy and "alternative". I was not created by a cookie cutter! I see myself as weird, but in a good way, not a creepy "looking-at-people-through-their-windows-while-they-get-dressed" sort of way. I live in the middle of no where and the kids that live up here, the kids that see themselves as "rebels," have nothing on me. Their ideas of mutiny do not extend beyond fashion. But don't get me wrong, I am by no means an anarchist. I just feel that expressing your individuality should not involve looking like even one else who shops at HotTopic. I am an adult and I know my responsibilities; work, rent, making dinner for my "family" (people don't have to be related to you to be family), etc. But these responsibilities do not dampen my ability to express myself. I have found that balance between being a duty-bound adult and a care-free teen. Sadly though, in my current location, the lack of a suitable outlet for my energies has forced me into subserviance to my adult side. I love to go clubbing but I hate the music most play. I long for big city life once more where I don't have to drive 45 minutes to hear some crappy DJ serve up some synthesized, sugar-coated, mass-marketed tracks on his turntable, tracks that dictate to women to "back that ass up" and "shake it like a salt shaker." I need something with a good strong beat, something to make me rock, something that treats women like the goddesses we are instead of just something pretty to look at and get off from. I do not mind if my actions on the dance floor are tucked away in the "spank bank" but I want it to be because I was memorable and sexy, not a slut humping your leg. (I've humped before, but I was horny and she was going home with me that night any way!)
These kids that I see walking down Main Street, fresh from class at the local high school, dressed in their baggy black jeans and skull and crossbones hoodie or short plaid skirt and band t-shirt all look the same. Why do kids think they can stand out by following the crowd?! How did alternative, non-conformist style become so main-stream?! I will admit, I have some pieces in my wardrobe that I bought at HotTopic, mostly band hoodies and sexy shoes, but these kids look like they are straight out of the HT catalogue! My style is very unique. I get stares walking around my one-horse town wearing a corset and renaissance-style skirt. I am the envy of these kids because I dare to walk around Wal-mart in a burgundy buckle skirt, puffy white shirt and black pirate boots! I drive men wild in a black skirt, brightly colord dress shirt, thigh-highs and matching garter belt. I am what you might call a "voluptuous" woman (more cushion for the pushin') but I have some damn balls! And that, my minions, is where true sexiness lies. When you know you're hot, pther people can't help but think the same.
This is what makes me a Suicide Girl. Suicide Girls bare the confidence of nonchalance. Suicide Girls are unique and deep. Suicide Girls are what every girl should aspire to. To be memorable. To be strong. To have the audacity to inspire every other girl to be the best they can be! Here's to all of us!
Next Chapter: My Sexuality.
I am a Suicide Girl. I might not have artfully captured pictures of me baring my sexy body invarious states of undress, but I am! My piercings are only in each of my ear lobes and my tattoo, a pentacle in the center of my back, is minor but being a Suicide Girl is more than just physical. I am confident, quirky, sexy and "alternative". I was not created by a cookie cutter! I see myself as weird, but in a good way, not a creepy "looking-at-people-through-their-windows-while-they-get-dressed" sort of way. I live in the middle of no where and the kids that live up here, the kids that see themselves as "rebels," have nothing on me. Their ideas of mutiny do not extend beyond fashion. But don't get me wrong, I am by no means an anarchist. I just feel that expressing your individuality should not involve looking like even one else who shops at HotTopic. I am an adult and I know my responsibilities; work, rent, making dinner for my "family" (people don't have to be related to you to be family), etc. But these responsibilities do not dampen my ability to express myself. I have found that balance between being a duty-bound adult and a care-free teen. Sadly though, in my current location, the lack of a suitable outlet for my energies has forced me into subserviance to my adult side. I love to go clubbing but I hate the music most play. I long for big city life once more where I don't have to drive 45 minutes to hear some crappy DJ serve up some synthesized, sugar-coated, mass-marketed tracks on his turntable, tracks that dictate to women to "back that ass up" and "shake it like a salt shaker." I need something with a good strong beat, something to make me rock, something that treats women like the goddesses we are instead of just something pretty to look at and get off from. I do not mind if my actions on the dance floor are tucked away in the "spank bank" but I want it to be because I was memorable and sexy, not a slut humping your leg. (I've humped before, but I was horny and she was going home with me that night any way!)
These kids that I see walking down Main Street, fresh from class at the local high school, dressed in their baggy black jeans and skull and crossbones hoodie or short plaid skirt and band t-shirt all look the same. Why do kids think they can stand out by following the crowd?! How did alternative, non-conformist style become so main-stream?! I will admit, I have some pieces in my wardrobe that I bought at HotTopic, mostly band hoodies and sexy shoes, but these kids look like they are straight out of the HT catalogue! My style is very unique. I get stares walking around my one-horse town wearing a corset and renaissance-style skirt. I am the envy of these kids because I dare to walk around Wal-mart in a burgundy buckle skirt, puffy white shirt and black pirate boots! I drive men wild in a black skirt, brightly colord dress shirt, thigh-highs and matching garter belt. I am what you might call a "voluptuous" woman (more cushion for the pushin') but I have some damn balls! And that, my minions, is where true sexiness lies. When you know you're hot, pther people can't help but think the same.
This is what makes me a Suicide Girl. Suicide Girls bare the confidence of nonchalance. Suicide Girls are unique and deep. Suicide Girls are what every girl should aspire to. To be memorable. To be strong. To have the audacity to inspire every other girl to be the best they can be! Here's to all of us!
Next Chapter: My Sexuality.