No matter where you go, there you are...
The older I get, the more apparent this becomes to me. This new job is great but it's draining all of the energy that should be directed at the really important stuff in my life, i.e., my education, personal relationships and most of all, my health. I never sleep, I'm drinking all of the time, smoking hand rolled tobacco...of course I am making $20 an hour. Not bad for bussing tables. I haven't weighed myself but I suspect I'm loosing pounds as well. I went in another notch on my belt the other day. Not good considering I'm as thin a rail to begin with. I'm having trouble fitting in at work too. Why do I have to be such an introvert? I find it particularly ironic that I have such a hard time fitting in at a restaurant that encourages individuality and seems to attract miscreants. Then again, fashion is fashion and I'm to freaky for the freaks. What else its new...
The older I get, the more apparent this becomes to me. This new job is great but it's draining all of the energy that should be directed at the really important stuff in my life, i.e., my education, personal relationships and most of all, my health. I never sleep, I'm drinking all of the time, smoking hand rolled tobacco...of course I am making $20 an hour. Not bad for bussing tables. I haven't weighed myself but I suspect I'm loosing pounds as well. I went in another notch on my belt the other day. Not good considering I'm as thin a rail to begin with. I'm having trouble fitting in at work too. Why do I have to be such an introvert? I find it particularly ironic that I have such a hard time fitting in at a restaurant that encourages individuality and seems to attract miscreants. Then again, fashion is fashion and I'm to freaky for the freaks. What else its new...
gigidejour:
That's rough, I would not necessarily call you an introvert. It happens with a lot of us at new jobs. All I can say is all it takes is one person to become intrigued with you and you should start to feel more like you fit in at work more. It has to start getting better. 