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Tuesday Dec 22, 2009

Dec 22, 2009
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By this time tomorrow I hope to be totally high on vicodine.
Unlike 666Irish I am not going to be strong and go without the pain killers.
Even if I don't need them I am taking those bad boys. And sorry there won't be any leftovers to share smile

So, you see I was needing a little pain in my life, so I was like new ink? No. Another piercing? No. I know I will just have them open up my foot and move the bone over a little smile
Okay not reallly, but I am hoping it fill this need for pain in my life.

I continue to grow more cynical.
Can anyone tell me where have all the cowboys gone? Or at least the good guys?

Dinner with a male friend last night, with my mouth agasp half the time by half the stories he told me of cheating, not caring and basic emotional abuse. Yeah, I know I have to think more about my friends.
Only to come home and hear more of the same from someone else.

And meanwhile I treat those who care about me the worst.
Isn't that the way? Maybe not the worse, but not the way they would want.

I am totally taking the next two weeks and just focus on myself, see if I can't get my head back into the right place.

I will be home in a safe haven. I will have my bed which has always been one of my favorite places. And I will be out of my normal environment. Sounds like a good time to review, reflect and change.

I will be back in time to wish you all a happy holiday, but until then...................I dont' know tell me what you want for xmas.
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nikonphoto80:
thanks you so much for the comment, yes I agree, 90% of that stuff is good, I just wish I could have bought my house first, that kind of sets me back a little, but I still hope to get one next year.

I really hope the procedure goes well, that does sound like it is going to be painful.

I dont even need a good girl, I just need a girl, it has been many years since I had a real girlfriend.

What did you say to them when you heard their stories?

Im going to be trying to get my head in the right place for the next 4 or more months I guess.
Dec 22, 2009
arbitraria:
take care of yourself sweets, surgery is no fun. frown i hope it will fill your pain fix yet at the same time help to take away future pain...if that makes any sense...

glad to hear you'll be in a good place for the holidays, you need a break. my shrink's always telling me "be kind to yourself"...of course i never listen, but it is good advice. smile

and i extend you an invitation to the group home for bitter-cranky-disillusioned-by-men women i hope to start someday soon. we can have a room dedicated specifically to outbursts of cynicism, hours of dwelling and crying to depressing music, screaming when the overall estrogen level gets out of control...and a wing for the cats. (single bitter women are supposed to have cats, right? lol...)

*hugs*
Dec 22, 2009

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