Sunday Dec 16, 2007

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I can't tell how I feel about Christmas this year. There are all sorts of reasons to feel bad, but also to feel grateful. I bought a tree and it is lovely and fills the house with its gorgeous stink. This evening I sat alone and made Christmas stockings for my siblings out of felt and yarn, listening to Sufjan Stevens' Christmas music, which is so lovely and sad. It's weird to live alone after all this time. I keep shifting from being contented with my solitude to feeling terribly isolated. I find myself starting hardcore cleaning projects only to stop what I am doing and stand there, confused, or I become distracted by an object or a scrap of paper and leave the floors half-swept or the kitchen sink still running while I lose myself in it.
cjomg:
This totally got my attention because it sounds quite familiar. Except I am alone at this time of year for the first time in a very long time and it's kinda unsettling how much I am liking it....glad u accepted the friend request.
ma2:
I haven't seen the Golden Compass. I thought about seeing it last weekend but my weekend turned into a work marathon. I think visually the Golden Compass will be worth seeing. I also want to see the new National Treasure movie when it comes out. I can take or leave Nicolas Cage most of the time but I have a soft spot for conspiracies and American history so I'll end up going to see it.

Honestly I haven't read much lately. I read Helprin's A Soldier of the Great War back in October. Not my favorite Helprin novel but he is such a good writer it's almost unfair. I miss good used bookstores. I was talking with my brother a few nights ago about a great bookstore I used to go to (in another city). I pretty much have to go to Berkeley to find used books.

I personally dislike Christmas. I'm not really sure what's being celebrated. The overt pressure to shop for the good of the economy (and hence the country) is pretty amusing (and baffling). I do enjoy buying things for others though. I'll rarely treat myself but I'm perfectly ok with buying things for my family and friends. Christmas is a good excuse I guess.

Did I mention I was going to be in DC in January? I'll believe it when I get travel arrangements emailed to me.

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