l1vingdeadgurl

Driving 140 in a 100, swerving in and out of the dead motorists, stuck in their zombie trance. Thinking about hitting the cement median for nothing but the hell of it. Blurry eyed, tear stained, thinking about flying to where the pain doesn't feel like pain at all, but like freedom or satisfaction or finality.
Blackberry's out the window, projectile-like electronic missile flies across 4...
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Daffodils

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand...
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Unbelievably grumpy and moody and all that. Fever is still here, I think I'm kind of use to the onset of it every night. I've been pretty much ignoring all my obligations for the last few weeks. No school, yoga or volleyball. Hubby is yelling all the time about me getting out and doing something, but all I want to do is sleep. I could...
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The urge and need to write is driving me mad, I just feel so much and can't really put any coherent thoughts together. I guess the fever does that to a person.

Mr Texas is leaving today, taking off again to some unknown place, to be unheard from again. I guess the pain isn't as bad this time, I will worry, I always do, but...
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so sick, can't shake these flu like symptoms, mostly at night. I am not eating, not sleeping and having chest pain every day all day. I get the chills then the hot flashes.

GAH.

I can't say I even know what to say anymore. Its like the days come in and out like a dream and no cognitive thoughts even pass through my brain.

I think dogs truly are man's best friend. I got a puppy last weekend to help me forget about all the heartache I am going through. I mean puppies love you unconditionally right? They don't...
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Going to my daughter's first away ringette game. I am so excited because she is an amazing player and its like watching everything you hoped for come true.

Pictures will follow,
We will be in Thornhill at Milliken Mills arena if anyone is close and wants to drop by.

xoxoxo
Alaska

most people could tell i am depressed because i have spent the last hour and half writing. they'd be close to being right.

the making's of a fucking shit day

6:10 am - wake up with a massive sinus headache, after not sleeping at all, next to someone who needs to shower and shave in a room with the feeling of a sauna with stank....
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