So another new years eve, bored, alone, typical. Means another year has passed, which in some respects should be a good thing. However I'm on the fence with it. Not that this year has been an epic shitty year. 2010 was wy worse, but the fact that 2011 was not much better is humbling thought.
I lost my best friend in the world in 2010,...
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I lost my best friend in the world in 2010,...
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Coincidence of today
-Reading a really great book called "The Psychopath Test: A journey through the madness"
-Having the sudden (or maybe not so sudden realization) that you married someone who is likely psychopathic, that being he screamed and yelled about the missing remote (which of course is MY fault because what the hell? Everything is my fault) then accuses you of throwing away an...
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-Reading a really great book called "The Psychopath Test: A journey through the madness"
-Having the sudden (or maybe not so sudden realization) that you married someone who is likely psychopathic, that being he screamed and yelled about the missing remote (which of course is MY fault because what the hell? Everything is my fault) then accuses you of throwing away an...
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blackheartdown:
Being an emotional punching bag is no fun ...
I wanted to call you today to say I love you but your number is no longer in service.
I tried the operator, she said 'Sorry I don't have a number for you'.
I emailed you but the internet said it was undeliveriable.
I tried to go to your house but you don't live there anymore.
The post office has no forwarding address.
I guess...
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I tried the operator, she said 'Sorry I don't have a number for you'.
I emailed you but the internet said it was undeliveriable.
I tried to go to your house but you don't live there anymore.
The post office has no forwarding address.
I guess...
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oxy:
Happy Holidays
Why do people ask dumb, DUMB questions, then get mad when you give them a dumb answer?
Like somehow I became the queen of everything and know exactly why things AREN'T going YOUR way.
Like seriously FUCK OFF
So sick again, can't keep awake for more than 30 min at a time no matter how much coffee I put in my system.
Another reason to...
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Like somehow I became the queen of everything and know exactly why things AREN'T going YOUR way.
Like seriously FUCK OFF
So sick again, can't keep awake for more than 30 min at a time no matter how much coffee I put in my system.
Another reason to...
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blackheartdown:
Some people don't appreciate the fine art of sarcasm, nor suffer well illness unless of course it is their illness.
This is my fuck everything blog.
First: I don't think I have ever, ever been this depressed in my entire life. Its hard to explain other than to say my day goes by like an old 8mm film, grainy, colorless, shaky and hard to watch.
Explaining to people why you're crying at random points of the day cause some stupid song, word and god knows...
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First: I don't think I have ever, ever been this depressed in my entire life. Its hard to explain other than to say my day goes by like an old 8mm film, grainy, colorless, shaky and hard to watch.
Explaining to people why you're crying at random points of the day cause some stupid song, word and god knows...
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laceyk:
Those seem like good reasons to be sad. Heartbreak is real.
And it always affects you physically as well.
Not to mention the weather and darkness doesn't help.
I hope tomorrow you wake up and feel a little bit better.
And it always affects you physically as well.
Not to mention the weather and darkness doesn't help.
I hope tomorrow you wake up and feel a little bit better.
Monday
Simon, please come back, you were the only one who never broke my heart, the only one I believed in. You can't be gone, you just can't.
I daydreamed about Bob today, at 7 am, while driving on the busiest highway in Canada, doing 80 and slammed into the back of a Toyota Matrix, folding my Honda like origami, fracturing my ribs and blackening...
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Simon, please come back, you were the only one who never broke my heart, the only one I believed in. You can't be gone, you just can't.
I daydreamed about Bob today, at 7 am, while driving on the busiest highway in Canada, doing 80 and slammed into the back of a Toyota Matrix, folding my Honda like origami, fracturing my ribs and blackening...
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debased_pixie:
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
I love that.
I hope that you are ok?
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
I love that.
I hope that you are ok?
"these violent delights, have violent ends, and in their triumph die, like fire and powder which as they kiss, consume"
I once thought we were like Romeo & Juliet. A love story written in ancient literature, a forbidden, impossible love; yet so deep and electric, so strong & all consuming. Nothing could stop us from being together. I loved him, I loved his boys and...
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I once thought we were like Romeo & Juliet. A love story written in ancient literature, a forbidden, impossible love; yet so deep and electric, so strong & all consuming. Nothing could stop us from being together. I loved him, I loved his boys and...
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Looking to plant some new roots somewhere else. Where is a nice place to live? I know where I want to live but the job market is less than ideal.
I am un-sympathetic to someone who is losing their father and it makes me wonder if I have some kind of personality disorder because I may even be HAPPY to see him in so much...
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I am un-sympathetic to someone who is losing their father and it makes me wonder if I have some kind of personality disorder because I may even be HAPPY to see him in so much...
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I can't really put my own words down today. They are muddled and confused and just plain nasty at times. My thoughts today could get me in a world of trouble. So a collage of things that describe how I feel today.
Revenge
By Letitia Elizabeth Landon 18021838 Letitia Elizabeth Landon
Ay, gaze upon her rose-wreathed hair,
And gaze upon her smile;
Seem as you...
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Revenge
By Letitia Elizabeth Landon 18021838 Letitia Elizabeth Landon
Ay, gaze upon her rose-wreathed hair,
And gaze upon her smile;
Seem as you...
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Going in and out of consciousness
I've lost 30 more pounds and the doctors say it's bad, it's unhealthy. I say its freaking awesome! I say keep it coming! Without the nightly fevers would be better :p
Would you spend your life waiting for something that you know would never happen, for someone who would never love you, ever?
Sounds totally ridiculous doesn't it? I...
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I've lost 30 more pounds and the doctors say it's bad, it's unhealthy. I say its freaking awesome! I say keep it coming! Without the nightly fevers would be better :p
Would you spend your life waiting for something that you know would never happen, for someone who would never love you, ever?
Sounds totally ridiculous doesn't it? I...
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blackheartdown:
Weightloss is ok, but being healthy is better. I thought the blackberry thing was just poetic effect! 
Could you pamper yourself tonight?
I used to get myself a little thing of sparkling wine, sushi and a cupcake. And just did whatever I wanted.
Felt like I was really focusing on me as I went into the new year.
Sounds like you have a good chance at a better year in 2012, based on your 2010 and 2011 description, and your 2011 self discoveries.