I am reading the most profound book I have read in a very long time. Especially since I feel the same way as the narrator, but can't express it.
It's so hard without a non judgemental friend to talk to. My so called best friend told me he doesn't agree with my choices and my partying, yet does not know anything about Why I feel I need to go this way.
Why is someone persecuted for not being in love with someone?
Why is it OK for someone who told you they loved you, then take it back, and add the best day or moment of your existence was the worst moment of his? Are people that apathetic they do not realize how utterly heartbreaking and devastating that is for the used?
I drink and party to erase it from my mind, I've tried hypnosis and it's always the same.
PAIN.
It's so hard without a non judgemental friend to talk to. My so called best friend told me he doesn't agree with my choices and my partying, yet does not know anything about Why I feel I need to go this way.
Why is someone persecuted for not being in love with someone?
Why is it OK for someone who told you they loved you, then take it back, and add the best day or moment of your existence was the worst moment of his? Are people that apathetic they do not realize how utterly heartbreaking and devastating that is for the used?
I drink and party to erase it from my mind, I've tried hypnosis and it's always the same.
PAIN.
they're ultimately pointless and counterproductive - - at best . At worst they trap you in an unending and truly horrific cycle of litigation, or god forbid, violence.
Let it go.
What happened and why really doesn't matter at this point. What does is moving on, if not amicably, then at least peacefully, and with a minimum of strife.
As always, the best of luck.