Experience on Ritalin (Methylphenidate) Day 2:
After staying up last night to create a PowerPoint jeopardy game - for no reason other than it sounded pretty fucking cool at the time, I browsed through 80's & 90's rap songs, the ones from my geno, on you tube, stared endlessly out the window, spent 45 minutes writing random bullshit, sent my love a message and finally crashed (like a fucking train wreck) at 5 am.
Cat meows to get in my bedroom at 7 am and the alarm signalling it's time to go to school - for the kiddies anyway - and I'm out of bed and spinning. Second dose at noon, in an hour I'm frantic about the soap stains in the jacuzzi tub and the slightly dis colored grout in between the ceramic tiles, and while I'm on my hands and knees inspecting, I discover the baseboards are not white, or even eggshell anymore, but a yellow white like nicotine stained teeth and the grout I'd forgotten and I'm searching for comet and white paint. My stomach is angry, demanding some sort of sustenance, which has been lacking since Wednesday, but I'm nauseous
and my blackberry's dinging and I remember something I wanted to do in photoshop and then remember the garbage needs changing and shit it's almost 5 and my house is still a minefield of half finished unnecessary projects.
I wonder what it's like in Texas right now, and if he's gone fishing.
After staying up last night to create a PowerPoint jeopardy game - for no reason other than it sounded pretty fucking cool at the time, I browsed through 80's & 90's rap songs, the ones from my geno, on you tube, stared endlessly out the window, spent 45 minutes writing random bullshit, sent my love a message and finally crashed (like a fucking train wreck) at 5 am.
Cat meows to get in my bedroom at 7 am and the alarm signalling it's time to go to school - for the kiddies anyway - and I'm out of bed and spinning. Second dose at noon, in an hour I'm frantic about the soap stains in the jacuzzi tub and the slightly dis colored grout in between the ceramic tiles, and while I'm on my hands and knees inspecting, I discover the baseboards are not white, or even eggshell anymore, but a yellow white like nicotine stained teeth and the grout I'd forgotten and I'm searching for comet and white paint. My stomach is angry, demanding some sort of sustenance, which has been lacking since Wednesday, but I'm nauseous
and my blackberry's dinging and I remember something I wanted to do in photoshop and then remember the garbage needs changing and shit it's almost 5 and my house is still a minefield of half finished unnecessary projects.
I wonder what it's like in Texas right now, and if he's gone fishing.
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listennow1:
i know. i was just looking forward to coming off them is all. i don't think i realised how much i was relying on them.
listennow1:
yeah. i might give it a few more days half dose and see how it goes before i go back up again. Thank you