Drunk mobile blogging, probably not the best idea,. I have been up since 3am and finished a bottle of southern comfort to myself.
So what if I am being self destructive? Ever fucking man I fall in love with decides there is "no chemistry" and wants to be just friends. Fuck friends! At this point in my life I have so many friends I don't even know half their last names. It's like the easy letdown. A way to tell you that youre not good enough, no matter what you do. All these fuckers around me, getting married and having babies with men who were MY men first!!!
I fucking settled do to the right thing and what do I get for being so selfless? A bunch of men I don't love and a handful I did love.
The pressure of finding a job and being in and out of the hospital paired with my mother coming back to Toronto which will undoubtedly add extra stress with her alcohol addicted husband is too much to bear. I am. Cycling again and it's worse this time.yet another psych appt Tuesday.
So what if I am being self destructive? Ever fucking man I fall in love with decides there is "no chemistry" and wants to be just friends. Fuck friends! At this point in my life I have so many friends I don't even know half their last names. It's like the easy letdown. A way to tell you that youre not good enough, no matter what you do. All these fuckers around me, getting married and having babies with men who were MY men first!!!
I fucking settled do to the right thing and what do I get for being so selfless? A bunch of men I don't love and a handful I did love.
The pressure of finding a job and being in and out of the hospital paired with my mother coming back to Toronto which will undoubtedly add extra stress with her alcohol addicted husband is too much to bear. I am. Cycling again and it's worse this time.yet another psych appt Tuesday.