l1vingdeadgurl

I am feeling a little better today. I feel like I am phasing into the manic part of my bi-polarism??? (is that a word)
I want to say thanks to all you guys (and gals) who comment regularly. It really does make me feel better, and helps me remember I got friends out there, even if they are the internet kind.
So...........today............
I got everything organized for my son's 5th birthday party. I sat in the back yard near the now CLEAN pool. Drank some beer smoked some shit, it was an overall pretty great day. Hubby is not home yet. It doesn't bother me that he is going out with friends, it just bothers me I am not allowed the same concession. If I was out all day at work, then went to play baseball,THEN went to drink with friends, he would turn into lucifer. He would so not be able to handle it and would otally freak out. Then we would have a good ol family chat about not going out on nights we are working and blah fucking blah.

I have decided to set a goal for myself every day. Just a small, achievable one. Like today for example, I was going to work on my photography business. And I did. It was only about an hour, but I am setting up a new site, getting together some of the material I have shot and putting it all together. I am proud of myself.
I suppose I will keep you updated of my goals. It should be fun..

I need a vacay though. I am beyond broke so does anyone have ideas for a broke person to go on vacation???