l1vingdeadgurl

The events of last night have kind of turned a lightbulb on for me, or turned my face to the sun, out of this shadow I live it. Long story short I (once again) had a fight with my husband, who lives on the opposite end of the earth. We are different which is something I always thought was great about it us. Realistically a realationship can only handle so many differences. This fight wasn't particularly nasty but it was kind of the straw that broke the camel's back. I decided right then and there that this is not going to work. We can't go on like this. We either need counselling or we need to give up. I won't get in to details but it has come to the point that I can't even tell him anything anymore. I am afraid of his reaction. I told him this last night. This is why I keep things from him because his reaction to EVERYTHING is so over the top that its a fight and I try to aviod it. He has a bad temper but not abusive or anything. But a person can only take so much fighting and they finally break.
I don't know what to do. I want to just run away, far away but I can't, And this is the inner turmoil I face.

I love all you guys and all the support you give me daily

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