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I cant stand to fly
Im not that naive
Im just out to find
The better part of me
Im more than a birdIm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
Its not easy to be me
I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'bout a home Ill never see
It may...
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Have you ever asked yourself, "I would really like to get to know that Harlequinne chick, she looks pretty awesome?" Well folks I have all you need to know right here. Enjoy



Apple juice or orange juice? Orange Juice all the way with a fifth of vodka

Are you a morning or night person? Night, eww mornings are gross

Which do you prefer, sweet or...
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I guess the old saying goes "today is the first day of the rest of your life"

My friends are trying to convince me that this is the attitude I should take. That my shitty and non existant past is just that.........the PAST. That I need to get over not getting to be a kid, going from supporting my parents to being a single mother...
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Eeek Monday....

So the story goes...my son was threatened with bodily harm on Friday at the preteen dance by some little piece of shit who's parent obviously dont know how to raise a respectable human being. I have had pretty much enough of this child picking on my son who is disabled and this kid is twice his size. Of course my younger, and much...
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I am seriously lonely...

I guess its probably payback for something I did in my past. Although generally I tried to be a good person.



Hey it's me what a big surprise
Calling you up from a restaurant
Around the bend
Just got in from way up North
I'm achy and tired now
And I could use a friend
I'd be a fool
To think...
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Ok I really hate blogs where people bitch and complain constantly but I have to resign myself to participating. I am so fucking beyond pissed off at the world. I hate most people in it and I am tired of walking around with a fake fucking smile on my face. I fucking hate my life, I fucking hate the world and most of all I...
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Apparently I am having a manic episode yet I am not sure why. So I have gathered my creativity back for maybe a day or so until it passes or the medications start working again. Its nice being this way. I am not a crazy manic. I just am overly happy and energetic, which compared to my lethargic, emotionless former self is a nice switch....
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I watched this movie last night I kind of connected with and everyone is going to think I am strange to have done so. The movie was called Tenderness. Its about a teenage girl who is obsessed with a young man who is a psychopath. Once he is released from prison she finds him and works her way into his life, eventually going on a...
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It's becoming increasingly difficult to find things to write about, especially since my mess make about as interesting as a bag of hammers. I do know one thing, life isn't easy, even for those of us who think it should be, or those of us who pray to a higher power. My feelings on God are mixed at best, I can't believe someone who loves...
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There's a light up there tonight
That shines a lady golden bright
I long to wait for you and I
It's over now, I know it's always

And I know you so you know me
But us remains impossible
And I know you know that I ain't me
So us remains impossible



Well there ain't nothin' to this but your daughter
And the life you...
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I am tired. Tired of being the one to apologize, to compromise, to trade in my beliefs to keep the reverence of peace among us. 10 years is a long time and it has worn down my soul to the point of me not being me anymore. Who you know is not who you would have known 10 years ago. I am tired of being...
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