l1vingdeadgurl

I am sitting here watching the snow fall outside. As much as I am starting to despise it, I have to admit it looks very pretty. I think I may go take some pictures of it later. My bedroom is almost done. It is chocolate brown and baby blue, and I love it. I am starting to get excited about getting back into the whole...
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Ok I am going to do a little venting here. Not necassary typical of me but I am SOOO PISSED,

WHY do people just ignore you instead of telling you whats going on?? Like why be friends with me if you are going to ignore me and pretend you are NOT friends with me when your friends are around?

GRRRRRRRRR

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didnt think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I cant explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow...
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Something is just not right with me the last couple days. I have that feeling, but I can't put my finger on it. I should be happy, things seem to be going pretty cool. I just cant shake this chill, this burning in my heart, this need down below. The longing for his touch, his arms around mine, those beautiful eyes meeting my confused ones...
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Days of Wonderful

How long will they last?
We just can't tell, but all I know is I will relish in every single second of it.

Some pretty awesome things have happened this week, and I am not sure if it is my that my view is finally changing due to intensive therapy and meditation. I recommend "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Toll to...
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Have you ever woken up and realized that TODAY is just not going to go the way it was supposed to. I was supposed to go to therapy and then off to a job interview. Once I dropped the kids off at school I was told they were not allowed in the school because there was a fire alarm, and we had to wait. So...
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I

More snow......
I also believe I am not going to get up from this wonderfully comfortable couch today.

We went ice skating at one of the most picturesue outdoor rinks I have every seen. It was hidden away in a valley with snow covered pine trees and a chalet built in the early 1900's. It was heated by a wood burning stove. It was an...
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My mood for the day is usually infinitely determined by what I wake up to in the morning. This morning it was hubby's dog (stupid mutt as I refer to it) beautiful mess of an entire 40 L garbage bag and all its contents spread all over the kitchen floor. AGAIN.....

As I precariously navigated my way around the meat wrappers and various different expired...
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Today is seriously cold.... like I actually had to put on a hat and mittens to get out to the car cold. I need some sun.....desperately.
So someone who I have a huge crush on and was being a total jerk and ignoring me for absolutely no reason, has decided to contact me again. I am on the fence about this. I am not attracted...
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Leftover lasagna is always my favorite leftover. Mind you it has to be in that perfect condition, not too old and moldy but crispy and unmelty. It is soooo good. I have succeeded in one major thing today- the dreaded cleaning of the bathroom, OMG did it ever need it, I suppose I should have took some pictures of me in a bra and sweats...
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White and soft, cool and fluffy, a clean palate. Its beauty only shadowed by the fact it piles up in the driveway and has to be removed..............by me..................
I would like to take this moment to thank the person who invented the snowblower, that today, tops the list of my favorite things, well except when it doesn't start and you have spent 20 minutes trying...
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