l1vingdeadgurl

If I could do anything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same? Feel the same as me?
If I could be anyone for you believe me I would
I'm not ashamed not ashamed to be
Its hard for me to know sometimes I feel like letting go
But what if it all means something?
What if it all
What if it...
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I'll be the girl with the long blond hair
And the really pale skin, if you care
I sit in the corner of the room
Cross-legged and quiet, filled with doom, mmhm

I never ever liked the smell in here
It's cold and wet and reeks of beer
The lights are turned out permanently
But that's OK 'cause I don't want to see

Wayne
Wait...
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This morning finds me up way too early, the puffiness of my once beautiful eyes has taken over and it looks like I have been punched in both eyes. Thank god for garnier eye roller. The days events yesterday came to a head last night where I cut and cut and cut something I havent done in welll at least 2 months.. So off to...
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_solipsist_ has me hooked on this here.
I am getting drunk and am high on ativan

I really needed this. I have been feeling antsy and crawling out of my skin. The good news is I am happy again.... I am loving and know things are going to work out, even...
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Lying on the filthy leather couches, recently recovered from the garage, she drifts on into sleep and it couldnt come soon enough. Once her eyes are closed she returns to that place where he is, the only place she can see him and touch him and its as close to being real as she can ask for. Shell dream of a love she can never...
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Time....
a friend and foe, but meets you to do battle regardless. Its something we all need and never have enough of, its too short, too long, heals and hurts. I wear my battle scars on my wrists, my legs and arms. For time has not been kind. They say I just need a little time, to figure myself out. Where do I get time...
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I am in such a good place right now and it has taken a while to get here. My heart is overflowing with just plain old good feelings. I love things right now, am IN love with things right now. I want to scream like a fool from the rooftop and dance like a fool in the rain. I am not sure what brought on...
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You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone...
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Happy Money Grubbing fat drunk St Valentines day to you. St Valentine was a womanizing drunkard by the way.

I hate being a woman. Realistically with my personality I shouldnt care that no one wished me a happy Valentines day other than a FRIEND OF MY BROTHERS who may or may not have the hots for me. Someone who I really dont care to wish...
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SIck, and feeling like crap. Can't exactly tell you why cause it is filed under TOO MUCH INFORMATION. But trust me it is bad.
So we all know this weekend is the weekend when a cherub fat miniature angel shoots his stupid arrow into someone's ass to proclaim undying love for one another. Please. Can he use a shotgun instead?

Maybe you have been brainwashed...
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To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow...
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For my friend _solipsist_




Now you can laugh...

Sorry I had nothing else to write about...

Its coming.............look out.