l1vingdeadgurl

Some days your the fly and some days your the winshield

In a real dark night of the soul, it is always three o'clock in the morning, day after day.
F. Scott Fitzgerald

and my all time favorite...

I hate the way you talk to me / And the way you cut your hair. / I hate the way you drive my car. / I...
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Drunk mobile blogging, probably not the best idea,. I have been up since 3am and finished a bottle of southern comfort to myself.
So what if I am being self destructive? Ever fucking man I fall in love with decides there is "no chemistry" and wants to be just friends. Fuck friends! At this point in my life I have so many friends I don't...
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So I have spent a good part of the morning crying. Over everything and anything in particular.Mostly because I have been feeling severely rejected by the people I care about most. In fact I think I have been rejected my whole life. My husband says things work out the way they should in the end. I called him a fucking liar and that the whole...
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I find I do my best writing when I am high. Not sure why this is, could be beacause my imagination becomes more vivid and colorful. My english skills lack though when I am high and this is one of my pet peeves. (poor spelling).
I dreamnt last night I was with him and we were making snow angels, he told me he was dying....
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6 more down the hatch and those familiar feelings return and I am floating and flying and nothing in the world can hurt me, or make me cry or make me scream and yell. The sun starts shining its gorgeous rays of yellow, abandoning the pale mute jaundiced color it held this past week. The sky returns blue, I open my arms and welcome it...
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Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,...
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You say that you're leaving
Well that comes as no surprise
Still I kinda like this feeling
Of being left behind

Yea this ain't nothing new to me
Well it's just like going home
It's kinda like those sunsets
That leave you feeling so stoned

Hey hey I guess it hasn't hit me yet
I fell through this crack
And I kinda lost my head...
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Ok second blog in as many days. What is wrong you ask? Well I am half drunk, half stoned and off my regular medication. So the idiotic vegtable that I normally am while I am on it, has broke free and decided we wanted to write a long winded blog about........friendships and relationships in general.
I for one, am incapable of keeping relationships, whether its...
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Back from another weekend away with the children. Luckily for me my teenage neice was there and she did babysitting duty while I partied my ass off and met some awesome folks.
Its amazing how a couple of drinks can change your perspective on some things.
Oh and am I the only one deathly afraid of the house of mirrors? God it freaks me out....
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Obsessive/Compulsive - is a mental disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce anxiety, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing anxiety, or by combinations of such thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions).
I was told to stay off this site by my psychiatrist and various family members. It causes destructive behaviour or for me to be naughty bahahaha.
The truth is I am waiting to go to...
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Goodbye SG, it was fun for a short period of time...

It seems the more we talk
The less I have to say
Lets put our differences aside
I wanted to make you proud
But I just got in your way
I found a place that I *CAN* hide
Now everything is changing
But I still feel the same
Were running out of time
What do I have to do
To try to make you see...
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