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So I was sitting there at my cousin's wedding yesterday...alone. Well not really alone so much, as dateless. I looked around me, it seemed everyone had atleast someone on their arm...or atleast someone to follow them around like a little puppy on a string. Granted, If dogs were what I wanted, I could pick out much cuter ones at the local shelter. As much as I love my canine companions, this formal affair called for much more than a one night stand smelling of gin and tonic...and lemon drops and martinis and many many bottles of beer. I'm talking about the person who when you sit there while the bride's walking down the isleway, think about how much more meaningful the moment would be if they were sitting at your side. The same person that when you look on the dance floor and wish to hell that you were face to face...body to body with them. At some point or another, or at many points, life seems all but fair. I am no stranger to the unfairness game. It's having that "new love" feeling, but not actually having that person. The reaons aren't necessarily because the other doesn't want you, but because of circumstance. Life is pulling who at opposite ends of the earth and there is not a damn thing you can do about it...but wait. There has to be some reason we obsess over certain people. There has to be more to it than just misery and self pity. This person means so much more to you than they have a right to. You can't really call it love, and it's so much more than a crush, maybe it's merely an infatuation. Though sometimes there's still something saying that it's more than that. Much much more than some silly obsession. I believe we are destined to meet the people we encounter through out this journey of life. Some people are naturally drawn to...even if the reasons are unclear.
I am in...like ( because love maybe to strong of a word) with a guy, who I want more than anything to meet again sometime in this life time. It's one of those relationships you would give anything to be in. What is so frustrating to me..is that he knows exactly how I feel, but I have no clue as to what he is thinking, he is unable to contact me at this point...but i am impatiently awaiting his reply. Ok...maybe I am in love with him. It is said that we are to have soulmates, and I strongly believe they exsist. I had have known him before I met him. When we met for the first time, it was more of a reunion feeling if anything. I grew instantly attracted to him, mind, body and soul...and I can even accept his faults and still be madly absorbed by him. We fit almost perfectly together. I hate telling myself things to make me feel better, or to say things to myself that aren't necessarily there...but I don't think this is one of those times....SO
Wish me luck...because I need it more than anything, not necessarily for now...but more for future years.

I thought the pirate was cute