kyshak

so i threw up some more dolls lyrics...im lisening to them like there water strained through beans...her voice kind of heals my soul a bit..but i made a whole big post on myspace about some things and i guess i can post it here to...i dont care anymore

So i have an announcement to make....i am finally in love....i am in love with myself and where i am in my life....something was shown to me and it was the final straw that broke the camels pervertable back...im tired of trying to be nice to someone who only wants to make snide comments and treat me (at least in my eyes) like total shit...im sorry but some people need to get down off the cross, use the wood to build a bridge and get the fuck over it...yes i broke up with you to go out with another girl...yes i know that was a shit thing to do...BUT...i have also told you why i did what i did...im not saying its an excuse..what i am saying is that im tired of having it thrown in my fucking face...how many things do i throw in your face? hmmm? didnt think so...guess what, people make mistakes...and sometimes those people realize those mistakes and try to rectify them or at least learn from them so they wont make them again...i am tired of trying to extend an olive branch just so you can light it on fire and smack me with it....I have changed and if you cant see that then well im sorry...i have NEVER had one ulterior motive for doing the things i have done...and i will now say this for the last time...I NEVER LIED TO YOU...but im damn sure you have twisted the truth once or twice during our whole tenor together...i know i have said this before...but thats it...i deleted all links, your off the "friends list"...basically your off the hook...you win...but for some reason i dont feel like i have lost anything....i have tried to tiptoe around this issue but im done...its not fair to her and its not fair to me...yes i love another...and yes she is blonde...and you can make whatever dispersions about her you want...i have given up judging people..or coming out of the holster with a "moron" or "dumbass" to people i dont know...because guess what someone has said that about you before...i have tried to be nice...i have tried to get nasty...i have truely tired everything to at least end this with some amicability but you just wont have it...it seems to me that you want this bloody...but im sorry im not giving you that...im walking away...and know this...you gave up what is going to be a VERY wild ride...i do thank you for one thing though...giving me the cosmic slap to finally wake me out of the rut i was in...i guess for that i must give thanks...do what you must....but know this...if you know anything...I didnt end this this way...you did...