kyshak

well its been 2 days and i still cant believe that im going to school...and some other really cool things have happened as well..as far as work is concerned..

i put in my 2 weeks notice at papa johns...its a good thing really...it was a good job until they got in a new manager that is a total chod....and the thing that made the descision final was the other day when i went in the other day to put in my notice for the end of august and before i had the chance to write out the note to the owner the chod tells me that i need to be retrained on how to slap the dough out...im sorry but i have worked with every manager there and none of them have a problem with how i do my job but now all of a sudden the owner wants me to be retrained on a very simple part of the job?! which pretty much means that the little fucker went and tattled or did whatever little fuckers do, to the owner...so i told him thats not going to be a problem that im putting in my 2 weeks notice....

now one of the main reasons i quit Papa was that at my other job they made me the day manager and put me on salary...at first i thought it was going to be 350 every 2 weeks but when i was talking to her the other night she told "no klein its 350 a week and 700 every 2 weeks, give or take a dollar for taxes" which floored me...thats a lot more money than i thought i was getting and more money i was making than at both jobs, which means that i can get my eyes and teeth checked before i go to texas and i really dont have to worry about the money for getting my car checked...and i might even have a little even after i get to texas....which i was kind of worried about since i was going to hang out in dallas for a week before school starts...

I was thinking tonight at work about how shitty its been since january and how weird it is that in a few short days how its alomst done 180...i do wish a couple of more things would happen in my favor but as of now i am finally starting to really see the light at the end of the tunnel...and i can say that now with all honesty...i am finally starting to feel a little better...hell i would even go as so far as to say i might...i just might be starting to be happy...now if i can just get my sleep and eating problems worked out i might just be returning back to some sort of normalcy...i dont know...maybe i needed to go through all this to appreciate the good things that have happened and the good to come...i worked my ass off for this and you always appreciate things more when you work hard for them...now i just have to that in my mind, well for the rest of my life basically

i dreamed about writing this post....i really did...because it all could have gone so the other way...and i dont know if i could have weathered any more pain and heartbreak...I thank every one of you who gave me words of courage and hope and strength...i really do...i appreciate things a hell of a lot more now...the little things and the big things...i will never take another thing in my life for granted...i think that is the point of all the pain and emotional torment i went through since january....you should always learn a lesson from what life throws at you and trust me i learned this one...i think the cost was a little high but in the end i think i will be a better person for it...i have changed a lot of my thinking and attitude towards a lot of ways that i see and interact with people...i hate a lot less now...i have tons more tolerance...i have been humbled in ways that i never thought i needed to be...but i see now that i was arrogant and selfish and stupid and my priorites were way out of whack and i have been that way for a looooong time....now i just have to look to the future and never forget what i learned...im glad i have started to read a lot more about Buddhism...and the more i read about this the more i fall in love with the ideas and philophosies...i found a path and now i just have to walk it...again i thank every one of you...and some who would never think i would thank or even want to call a friend....i pray every night for everybodys well being and happiness...i actually care for people now and actually care about there well being....its a strange and great feeling...and i hope to have more of them...

well im tired and i feel like a pizza wrapped in a sub so im off to take a shower and try to get some sleep...



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