kyki

Fucking tired as hell. I have not had the energy to do anything for such a long time it's actually scaring me. I'm going to the doctor today though. Aside from not having any energy I have a seriously fucked up shoulder as well as hip and knee, all on the right side. My neck is always fucked up so of course there's that. I have been really sick for almost 2 months now, just with colds, allergies, flu, god knows what and I'm not better. What the fucking hell?! So I would like to figure something out with my doctor. Also I feel hideous right now, I have gained so much weight recently and I think part of it is that I don't have my guy anymore who used to make me feel good about myself so I'm falling back into the self loathing that Jeff taught me to feel.