kyki

Just got back from Denver. God aurora is fucking far away. We drove out there for a party and there must be a quicker way to get there but jesus christ it's far away.

I have a huge fucking pimple on my chin. It's so big and I fucked with it so it's red now. I tried to cover it up. I'm not sure if i'm working tomorrow. I put in my 2 weeks but basically I'll be working a lot unti then. My boss said I should just transfer to the Denver store if I'm thinking of quitting....
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Where is everyone? I know people are busy but this is ridiculous! I want to do something for my birthday and it just seems like such an inconvenience to everyone (I know that's me just reading into things though) that I feel like not doing anything. We'll see. Tami is coming into town. I think we're going to a party on Saturday. That'll be fun....
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Electric Toaster
Eclectic toaster
I'm on fire, on fire just burning away from the heat but away from the pain
Open just a bit more to get the air inside, feed the fire.

I'm going to Roy's funeral tomorrow. We leave at 3am. I hope work figured out the schedule shit. I don't know what the fuck to do. I still haven't come to terms with Papi dieing and I haven't had time to grieve at all. Like I was driving home today and thinking about how my grandfather is dead and I can't even accept that yet...
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Depressed. Shitty shitty things that I did last night. oh god I'm a piece of crap. I let will fuck me. I got so fucking drunk last night. Oi. Bad girl Kyki! Bad girl!!! I just want to not be shit. Fuck. I need a boyfriend who will show me I deserve to be treated well.

Working tomorrow. Probably having dinner with Will. We'll see I suppose. I'm really just fucking tired and need to never work and just laze about for the next year but I know that's not going to happen. I'm applying (in person) to Metro on Monday and I'm Also looking for places in Denver. If that doesn't really work out I'll look elsewhere but I found...
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I am back in Town. I missed all of you. i wish I could see more of you Quinn but obviously we're both busy and you probably much more so than I. i hope everything is going well.

It was good. My grandmother is just amazing. I loved my grandfather so much and he really did so much with his service to this country and...
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Wow. My family keeps trying to get me to do inane chores with them. Have you ever just wanted to be on vacation and be on vacation? No, I don't want to fix shit, clean shit, do shit. I just want to be sad and read. Fuck this. I have shit to do when I get home and I don't want anything else stressing me...
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Papi's funeral was yesterday. Gramma gave us all hankerchiefs. I cried a lot. It's really sad. Father mathew came out for the service. He was really cool. He was on the phone with papi when he died. I didn't want to cry because I have to try and stay strong for Roy's funeral and it's just building. I think I'm going to need a couple...
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You know. Depressed. But everyone has been fairly good so that's nice. We went to buy some funeral clothes. It was depressing. I had to buy for the impending Roy's funeral and for this one. Wow. Anyways.

It is gorgeous here. The rain has been warm and gorgeous. Must go. But I think this will work out ok hopefully.

Last night was fucked up. It just sucked the energy (more) out of me. I'm so exhausted already. I don't want to be in my job anymore. I am tempted to look for a job while I'm in Virginia. I just need to pay off my debts and this job isn't helping and I'm miserable. I like the people but it's not a good fit...
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