I am complete Loser!
So I was walking up the crowded downtown San Jose streets, and coming the other way walks an old acquittance of mine, a chick, an old high school classmate that used to be completely hot. . . and still is.
What do I do? Well I just walk by, not knowing whether she recognized me or not, of course right after she goes past me I turn around and watch her leave, then the struggle within starts inside of me.
You know the feeling, your brain starts to fill with ideas such as Wow, she really looks good, I wonder if she has a boyfriend or husband. . . she probably does, or I remember back in high school she flirted a couple of times with me, I was such a dumbass ( the behavior back then was no different as today of course).
Then I started to realize my huge mistake, I realized that I should had stooped right there and call her name, even then it wasn't too late, I could have turned back and run like the wind to catch up with her, and just ask hey are you single? I don't want to waste your time so, could I have your number? and then go back with the people I was with, which gets me to another point.
I was with some people, should I had been alone maybe I would had actually done something, *sight*, yeah, thats one of my excuses.
It would not be such a big deal, but the thing is, this chick, I saw about one to 2 years ago when I was riding the bus, and she was walking down the street, since then I started to time my bus boarding time to try and sync with her, but every time I would get early, late, miss a bus on purpose and all, SHE NEVER APEARED, I had everything planned back then, but of course, it never happens when you want it to, so, destiny as the bitch it is, places her right on my face today, when I don't expect it, just to leave me feel like shit for. . . 2 hours? What? Hmmmm I am starting to build some resistance against depression, about time.
Anyway, I didn't caught her looking at me, so she may have missed me, or maybe she felt like I did, and felt I was too hot to give a shit about her.
So I was walking up the crowded downtown San Jose streets, and coming the other way walks an old acquittance of mine, a chick, an old high school classmate that used to be completely hot. . . and still is.
What do I do? Well I just walk by, not knowing whether she recognized me or not, of course right after she goes past me I turn around and watch her leave, then the struggle within starts inside of me.
You know the feeling, your brain starts to fill with ideas such as Wow, she really looks good, I wonder if she has a boyfriend or husband. . . she probably does, or I remember back in high school she flirted a couple of times with me, I was such a dumbass ( the behavior back then was no different as today of course).
Then I started to realize my huge mistake, I realized that I should had stooped right there and call her name, even then it wasn't too late, I could have turned back and run like the wind to catch up with her, and just ask hey are you single? I don't want to waste your time so, could I have your number? and then go back with the people I was with, which gets me to another point.
I was with some people, should I had been alone maybe I would had actually done something, *sight*, yeah, thats one of my excuses.
It would not be such a big deal, but the thing is, this chick, I saw about one to 2 years ago when I was riding the bus, and she was walking down the street, since then I started to time my bus boarding time to try and sync with her, but every time I would get early, late, miss a bus on purpose and all, SHE NEVER APEARED, I had everything planned back then, but of course, it never happens when you want it to, so, destiny as the bitch it is, places her right on my face today, when I don't expect it, just to leave me feel like shit for. . . 2 hours? What? Hmmmm I am starting to build some resistance against depression, about time.
Anyway, I didn't caught her looking at me, so she may have missed me, or maybe she felt like I did, and felt I was too hot to give a shit about her.