kurupt

Fuck it has been too long, I missed everyone. I just started a new job but working the old job on weekends and school at night. This sounds like a lot, and it is, but I subconsciously make myself too busy for one reason. Excuses! I had my epiphany last night when I was driving home, going over all the shit I need to get done. I was checking my voicemails and realized I am deliberately avoiding anyone who has any interest in me. And my excuses are always ready and real. I have school tonight, I work all weekend, I am making clothes tonight for a band that need a helping hand in the wardrobe department. I keep taking shit on just so I have an excuse for why I didnt call back and why I can never meet for a drink/movie/dinner etc. It is a little funny, but maybe even more pathetic. I have avoiding dating for almost a year, and yes that does mean i am the masturbating queen. I think maybe 7 times yesterday and that was only because I had school right after work. So I think I have officially banned dating from my life and will soon be wed to my hand and my variety of toys. I think that means I am a polygamist. But do toys count? And do I have to go to Tijuana to marry them? Well it is good to be back and I thought I would ramble for a second, but I have to go masturbate and leave for work.