THE SGFLSHOOTFEST2012 (Check out instagram with that exact hastag and expect to have your ovaries and gonads exploded from the absurd amount of the sexy!). I fucking miss everyone SOOOOOOO much right now.
This was a great week with some of the most amazing ladies I have EVER fucking met! (And yes, I'm getting a wee bit misty-eyed lol).
OH, aaaaaaaaand....
All my FEELS. Sooooooo many amazing memories!!! I love you girls and miss you dearly!!! This was, hands down, one of the greatest weeks of my life. Returning home was a serious GUT-check to reality. It actually took some getting used to actually being back here. Oy.
But...still good times, all things aside. And I think we all needed it. 
Now, back to reality! As many of you know, I have started the process of moving back to Chicago to help my mom. It's been an up and down struggle, honestly. I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that my life WILL be drastically different once I'm there, and taking care of her. For those who don't know, my mother is a three-time stroke survivor, and also suffered an aneurism. All of this has left her unable to walk properly, as well as care for herself, and she also can no longer use the dominant side of her body, which is her left side, her left hand, etc. And she's currently in a nursing home.
TO HELL WITH THAT.
My grandmother, may God rest her soul, DIED in a nursing home. And in an INCOMPETENT one at that. My grandmother struggled with a problem I have come to terms with something I have also inherited---drug addiction. I'm not ashamed to say it. However, my grandmother was very much addicted to pain medication, while I'm addicted to things that make you drowsy and sleep (Benadryl, xanax, nyquil, etc). In the end, her addiction killed her. She snuck into the nurse's area and OD'ed on tylenol 3 and died.
I'm working on my addiction, however, the point is: NO MOTHER OF MINE IS LIVING AND DYING IN A NURSING HOME.
Hence, the reason for my move back. My mum deserves the BEST out of life, and by GOD, I am going to be the one to MAKE SURE OF THAT. She deserves it after everything she has been through, and everything she has done.
So, that beings said, that leads me to my next new life change:
I'm enrolling in a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant) program, as well as training to become a Home Health Aide, and Restorative Care (Physical rehab). I've already put down the money, all I'm doing is waiting for class to start. That way, I can give her the PROPER care. My cousin who works for the state told me, after I signed up, that I can get paid to take care of my mom. I'm excited, yes, because that means I can get paid to take care of my mom, and also make a living, but it's honestly and truly more about making sure that *I* am qualified as a person to take care of her. I'm very much looking forward to starting my new life with her.
The move will happen (I'm hoping) in early March, and shortly after I graduate from my CNA program. Everyone, hope for the best.
Anyway, more pictures. Went hiking up to Switzer Falls yesterday with Milloux, Lylie, Tristyn Ackely, and Hopeful Jinchuriki who is in our neck of the woods until Saturday! It was a total blast. Had a LOT of fun, and did a LOT of hiking and rock climbing!
...And for some reason, the uploader is being RATHER retarded, so I can only do these two pictures, which means you guys have to go and hassle the other girls for the other pictures lol! Sorry aboot that! Anyway, more randomness before I close out the blog:
As far as my relationship status goes, I think it goes without saying that I'm very confused and very unsettled about moving to Chicago, and leaving him behind, but then there are times when I really think, "YOU ARE GONNA MAKE ME END UP ON SNAPPED!!!!!!!". I hate the lack of sex we have, and how difficult things have been, but they aren't as bad as they COULD be, thankfully. Then, I have those moments when I'm laying with him, and I think, "Maybe we can do long distance...I don't wanna leave you..." and then I'm just legit torn in two. He says he wants to do the long distance thing, but I'm not so sure, and all of this is even more confusing and upsetting because despite the fact he makes me wanna pull out my hair, I love him dearly. I really do.
I'll guess we'll find out, but for right now, it's AA status:
"One day at a time."
Kisses to all of the missuses, and pitched tents for all the gents!
~Kuro~
PS: CONGRATS TO ALL OF THE NEW PINK LADIES AND THE FUCKING AWESOME SOBELLE FOR HER VERY FIRST SET GETTING BOUGHT!!! You're on the way to Green, lady!!!
