Hey everyone, hope you are all doing ok and welcome to another edition of my In General blog series. Where I just chat to yous all. About me and my life in general.
I try to do this blog often since the one where I just open up since tbh most of the time. Blogs is all I got in my life atm. That's why you saw in the title that it says fan account burn out. Well that's cause it is a lot of work to do for the fan accounts. Especially since I've recently rebirth my Twitter one. And getting old followers back is hard. And as yous know, I hate begging for followers and that. Absolutely begging for followers. I always love to earn it from hard work and cause they want to you know. I mean I have no hard feelings if people not following me, unfollow me or even block me. I have been blocked by two or three people on SG but guess what. Their choice. Since I have had a fallen out with those ppl ages ago but you know what, no hard feelings. I have said sorry so many fucking times to them and they don't want it so I leave them be you know. I'm just so tired of drama and all the fucking political talks on social media. It's a pure headache if I be honest. I'm only on social media for SG and my favourite Alt Models. But seriously, everytime I'm on it. Makes me want to break my phone in half. The level of toxic post about men, all of men can be hard to go thru when I never done anything to make girls feel that way but I go thru that since I know that the SG models/mates know me. They trust and rely on me. They love me and I love them, we got each others back and support each other. But those type of post like that, cancel culture, sex work, etc can be too much. Especially for my ASD mind lol. But yeah it gets too fucking much but I cope to the best of my abilities. But I reach a bit of a burn out after Instagram has shadow ban me and their rules is a mindfuck. I do my best to help out by promoting my favourite models & photographers too. Also theirs drama BTS within the Alt Model/SG community which I won't talk about. And something models shouldn't really talk to me about. Since I don't know what goes BTS since I shouldn't. I'm a member of this site. I maybe not be like that to some but I am a member still. I do blogs and fan accounts for fun. I'm not hired by SGHQ or work for anyone.
Yous got to remember that I don't get paid to do my blogs and fan accounts. I do it for fun and I wasn't expecting anything out of it. Wasn't excepting Front Pages or have many followers. Reason I'm saying that is cause I don't want drama. Been thru a lot of shit to be here where I am today. I almost took my life after college cause my mental health was bad and the reason I got supported at all by the social care service was cause I was on suicide watch. Also I was a shut in, anti social. And trust me, it took a long time to get to the mental health improvements I've made. I'm not shy about my past with my mental health battles. Since I'm still going thru it. I'm dealing with feeling alone a lot and yeah I am emotional and I am sensitive. But I do my best to be better and help others that also feel blue and down. That's why doing the fan accounts and blogs about my favourite models was I thought a good idea. Three years later, still is. Believe me or not, that's the true. And I know a lot of yous believe me since you have known about me for a while. I'm always up front. Always have and always will.
That's one of the reasons that I've came back to Twitch. I did a lot of thinking. I think I should give it a go again and not let it get to me. I have joined @evoke streams, a wee bit of @akiramai and see what happens with @phianixx but I'm more focus on my own. So feel free to join me....
I'll be streaming Skyrim on there mostly. So feel free to join me and there is no pressure to join. Also other games too. See what happens. I do know that @tripodski @missjcristina @sookysins @autumnsky @gloom @chinaski @evoke @phianixx @diddy_dave_uk @elaena @keshia @reuben @fatal @gnomi @magusjoe @poshallen etc are following me there and thank you btw. But it is up to yous all. Tbh I'm only back to play games, have fun and chat to whoever is around. I don't expect to have @phianixx numbers or anything lol. Hell I don't care if I turn affiliated on there or anywhere. Like @penny said in her @photographer Q&A blog, you can't please everyone. And that's true, you can't. And you know what, that's fine. That's what I've been getting in my mind. I'm not doing this for big follows or be famous like Ninja. I'm doing it for me and for the followers I do have.
It's the same attitude I have for on here. If I do reach 500 followers here. Awesome and I'll write that Top Ten of my favourite SG Sets blog. If not, no biggie. Just a milestone goal to make it special. I don't expect anything from this site in the first place. Hints when I see my blogs on Front Page, making friends with models/photographers, etc. I still can't believe it. Hell they all say I should be a photographer on this site one day like my mate @tripodski but as I said, if the models want it. Just that I haven't travelled anywhere on my own in years. I love to though since I do want to travel. Also meet up with SG mates of mine. Especially if their around in Ayr or closer. But I don't know, wishful thinking. It'll be surreal if it happened. For me at least. Since I don't think my blogs and fan accounts help that much. But no it has, they all know me and love hearing from me. When I go on @evoke livestream, she smiles and goes FUURRYY haha. Same with @helenarae when she's on and even @julha hell even @fla too on @joymermaid stream and I know her english is very limited. It always means a lot that a lot of them consider me friends. Honestly, thank you.
You see from my recent stories with @peachynorth and of course @kitsu who has been one of my best mates. Kitsu has been always chatting to me and same with Peachy whenever she can. Same with @seasick @niallpatterson @helenjade @dannikadaisy @nolajean @rubyalexia @jasminelouise @marlene @mist @sammiii @asxna @brizelll @blaizee @stephanie and so on. I lost count. I got too many online mates and I know if any of them was close to Ayr. They will be hanging out with me 100%. Hell I'll be giving my model mates work by shooting their sets if they want to. I may not talk to them all the time since their busy and got things going on. But I'm always around as they are with me.
I can't thank yous enough SG. Especially yous at SGHQ. Putting my blog of @hex front page. Honestly thank you guys at LA. I know yous are busy people too and you do a great job with this site. I'm happy to write up blogs like I do. Even though guys, come on. Is it about time the models like @nolajean @alexabstract @victoriaboness @missjcristina etc turn pink? That's why I'm not looking for my blogs to be my actual job as some have said like @marlene which thank you btw. Just seeing my favourite Hopefuls getting turned pink and my favourite SG models getting another Set Of The Day is payment to me. I don't do blogs for me. I do it for them. Sure I do talk about myself but my goal is to help models get SOTD or turned pink. That's the goal of the Hopeful Highlight, Appreciation Blog and FSS blog series. My goal with my In General blog is for anyone to understand me and just get to know me. I don't expect much. I'm just thankful and glad that a lot of them appreciate me as I appreciate them for even caring about me. Wish I can hug yous all and tell yous all, thank you. Yous make me feel welcome and unalone. Also yous definitely helped me personally too. I know that I don't like begging but giving me a shoutout, follow, like, etc like yous do has helped me feel welcomed and loved. Since usually I feel like an outcast here cause I am a virgin. I don't do sex, fetish or any of that. Even though I won't say no and I am a supporter of sex work. I see ladies say that guys/BFs don't accept them being a sex worker but I do. Hell, if my GF was a SW & wanted to create B/G content for them. Yeah, I'll be nervous but I would do it. I'm not forceful and it is up to them. I know that on the model's pages their open to dick pics, etc if I tip them or something. And I'm always anxious in doing it. Since seriously I am a vanilla. I didn't know what the fuck BSDM is til last year. Or the term Netflix & Chill. I was like, wtf is that? you know. Still surreal to me but I'm getting my head around it. I was reading @penny blogs about her first date and reading her story. It was crazy but I'm glad she got a good friend out of it who helps her with her OnlyFans content. I mean I can't imagine being a goth orgy party haha. I have to be either drunk or high out of my arse to enjoy that scene hahaha. But I love reading her story there. I do love to read more crazy sex stories cause I do find them interesting. Even reading some of @evoke descripting a sexual story is interesting too on her page. Yous people do fascinate me lol. In a good way, it's cool to hear about that. Helps me to learn about sex and helps me to write blogs about yous better you know. Cause it is no secret why we are on this site. And there's nothing wrong with that. It's normal to explore your sexuality & check out sexy stuff online. Just don't be a dick about. Whatever if your a member, model or photographer. Be kind and respectful to others, don't be a dick. More love, less hate and especially less manipulating. We all have our own problems, lets support each other and care for each other you know. That's it.
I am doing better for myself. Keeping busy with the blogs & fan accounts. But also take a break and take things with a pinch of salt. Not everyone has the free time like I have. And I use my free time to create blogs and post on fan accounts. But also stream on Twitch, cook food for my folks & family, go for walks, play golf, etc. Basically just taking it easy. Don't let myself beat myself up. That's why I deleted my "I'm deleting My Twitch" blog. Since the problems I did had with Twitch, I've moved on and I want to continue. Keep building it up. Like my blogs, keep blogging and just enjoy it. Enjoy the interactions. Life is too short for drama and political talks online. All it does is hurt. And I'm 33 years old, getting old for that now. I just want to have fun and just be cool with everyone you know. That's why the CampSG stuff was good. I love being apart of @marlene camp with @kitsu @gloom @mimo @chinaski @jupiter @nikitaray @mist @basseshigh etc. It was good while it lasted. IDK if it's still around but it was fun and sorry if I missed the livestream. But I know yous understand. It is hard to keep up with everyone. I know it is hard to keep up with me, I can admit to that haha. I change my mind a lot. But I'm always winging it. But I am getting better. I'm thankful so many understand me and respect me.
Speaking of blogs, I do have some news........
A NEW BLOG SERIES
Yes I'll be debuting a new blog series. Since one of the CampSG challenges was about poetry and I'm a fan of @xheartswornx blogs, which he puts in his poetry touches to. And also I got this idea when I was on @ivylina Twitch Stream doing a fantasy story about @phianixx and I thought "this is a good idea for a blog series". So my new blog series is called Fury's Fantasy Stories which will be my next blog. I have written a few already. Their all for fun and for laughs but also why not. It's to show off my fun side to yous all and hope yous all enjoy it. My first one is about @evoke so keep an eye out in the week ahead as well as my next Hopeful Highlight blog. Which is a hopeful model I have written a Appreciation Blog before. So look out for that.
So yeah I got a good few things planned. So if yous want a Fantasy Story written up by me models, photographers, staff and members. Let me know, DM me or comment to me. Up to yous!!
Before I finish up my blog here. Just want to thank yous. Especially to the SGHQ, SG, SGH and photographers for treating me like an equal here and on social media in general. Also personally. I know I am just a member but yous all treat me like an equal and understand my struggles so I do want to send a big thank you to yous. Cause yous all understand, writing blogs is a lot of work and makes me feel loved so thank you.
And thank yous all for reading this In General blog. Means a lot. Yous are the best and hope yous are all doing well & are good. Don't be afraid to reach out to me. I have also created a alllinks account. So find me in either links on my alllinks (Try saying that three times haha). kungfurysg alllinks
So til the next blog. This is Kevin aka KungFury saying take care, much love and thank you all for your support & friendship to this guy. Means a lot!!
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