kundalini

I've spent a while today going through the message boards, and there is some hilarious shit in there. If I've learned nothing else about the membership of this site yet, the one thing I have learned is that these people as a group have a great sense of humor. Maybe it's just me, maybe I'm just so needy for a good laugh that I'll laugh at anything, but I think I've laughed more today just looking through people's posts than I have in a long time sitting in the company of real people. Honestly though, it's been so long since I've been around a group of real people that I can't even remember having a good laugh with anyone.
Speaking of which, I'd like to have a man to man talk with a couple of my old friends who have taken to avoiding me like I were the mummer in Poe's "Masque of the Red Death," but they're not making it easy. Am I justified in wanting to know why I've become a pariah, or should I just let things go? I think I deserve better than silence... And if I ask, what are the odds I'm going to get an honest answer anyway? I'm just guessing here, but I wonder if it had something to do with how I was interacting with their wives and or girlfriends. I considered them friends too, maybe I was spending more time talking to the females than I should've. I had actually become good friends with the one guy's wife, but I wasn't trying to break them up or worm my way into her heart. She's just a sweet girl and a friend. Still the guy did have something of an inferiority complex going on. Though we were friends he always seemed to resent the fact that I was five inches taller than he was and had bigger, stronger arms and shoulders even though he spent more time at the gym. Jealousy seems so petty, but the more I think about it the more likely it seems to me that was why he started to avoid me.... Anybody around here got any input...?