kumquat

i've gotten into school now.
i like it.
it gives me something to do.
to occupy some of my time.
and hopefully soon, it will occupy more due to some fun volunteer opportunities.

i'm going through a rough, dramatical patch at the moment.
it's getting to be a bit more than i can bear.
but things are changing.
oh how things will change.
i'm almost welcoming to it for once- i think i may be ready.
i may appear to be melancholy and maudlin but it doesn't always go much deeper than appearances.
it's a pensive state.

i have a presentation tomorrow at school.
i am terrified and unprepared.
i also have an exam tomorrow.
not as scared, but quite unprepared.

i am having a hard time getting my head into it this evening.
i want to sit around and take pictures.
i want to write.
i want to create.
i really don't want to do school projects.
but i'm learning...
life isn't all about what i'd like to do.

but i would like to have some green and blacks.
and tomorrow i shall get some.
as a reward you see.
because i will have stayed up all night preparing for that darn presentation and exam.
why oh why do i always leave things to the last minute?
oh right.
i like the challenge.
*grin*