Well, I just got back into town from Spike & Mike's animation festival, and it was entertaining. You know, the realization that it is totally doable to zip up the freeway and spend a few hours in portland has been great. I'm totally stoked too, because i got my car today, and now i'm relearning how to drive a stickshift. Look out world, i'll be back on the road again, and you're all going to have to put up with me. In between dinner and the movie this evening, Nina and I walked around. We went from the Laurelwood public house to Kell's and back. We were just out for a little stroll while we waited for the box office to open, but we ran into a random guy who we heckled for being on a cell phone, until he asked us how to get to Kell's. Well, since Kell's is our second home practically, we just decided to walk him over there. Turns out he's going to OHSU to be a dentist, and he graduated from OSU. Small fucking world. We even made it back to the theater right as the show was starting. Rocktastic.
One of the boys we stayed with last weekend bought a shortie school bus in Colorado, and he's off picking it up right now. This means i'm going to be scraping and primering and painting a short bus, so we'll have the best damned party bus in p-town. He called us while at the movie, we ignored it, hopefully it wasn't to tell us he broke down, because he has to be at work on monday.
Well, there is only one full day left until my own little lent is upon me. From Sunday, March 27th until May 5th i'm straight-edging it. I've had many reactions to this, from WTF is it, to Why in god's name, to wow. Well, i'ma assume that y'all know what it is, and get down to the why. Mainly, its to prove i can. It all started with a discussion i had with my little sister, who is a born again christian (yeah, i know). She was telling me about what she gave up for lent (internet and reading, to the extent that they entertain her), and why its good. I told her that giving up books was stupid, and that lent is a pointless exercise, because many view it as an excuse to behave for forty days and live to extreme excess for the rest of the year. She said that while i had valid points, the main message was of sacrifice and inner strength. Dammit. That got me thinking about my own behavior, and if there was anything i was doing that i percieved as weakening or a detraction. Of course booze came to mind pretty quickly. I've been drinking way more than usual of late, and given a family history of alcoholism, it has been kind of scaring me. I've also been smoking, which i ostensibly gave up on new year's, and i've been a little potheaded too. Now, my first instinct is to cop out and put it all on extra stress, but to be honest, there hasn't been much more than normal lately, and that would just make my substance usage a crutch anyway, which i will not tolerate in myself. SO basically i've decided to accept my own challenge, and prove that i can actually not use these things, and still have a lot of fun and cope with my stress. This means that from the time i wake up sunday until when i wake up on cinco de mayo, on alcohol, no tobacco, no pot, no caffeine, not even painkillers unless i really need them. This means i may be a grumpy little bitch for a few days, but i really look forward to spending some time with sobriety for a little bit. I must apologise now t oanyone i may offend or insult by refusing their hospitality, but this is really important to me. I will still gladly hang out with anyone i would have before, with or with out bells, but that standard glass of wine or beer will not be in my hand. You should still feel free to do your thing, and if anyone wants to come over and have one of mine, i'll share gladly. I think to reward myself for the self-discipline, i'm going to get one of my tattoos touched up, and get that little spider on my skull, a la spider jerusalem. it should be intersting, to say the least.
Wow, i've gone on and rambled away quite a fair amount of text there, haven't i. it kinda feels cathartic and relaxing, but that may just be the music i'm currently listening to, Deep Forest. Ok, now that you know way more than you wanted to about me, i have questions for you. Answer or not, as you see fit. Please feel free to prattle away as much as you like, i enjoy others' verbosity far more than my own.
1)Have you ever taken up self-sacrifce? If so, why, for how long, what, etc.
2)What music relaxes you, just carries you away to another place for a while?
3)Would you rather be able to breathe underwater, or fly? Why?
4)Considering getting any body mods soon? What, Where, Why?
5)Pancakes or Waffles? Maple syrup, jam, or plain? Hashbrowns or toast? Eggs or tofu? Soysage or Fakin Bacon? Or are you one of those Lucky Charms people? Breakfast is a serious business, and how you answer says a lot to me. Plus, i've been craving diner breakfast lately.
6)Noon or Midnight?
7)What defines "good music" to you?
8)What country would you most like to be the leader of?
9)You have $100 million and three months to live, what do you do?
10)You are going to be reincarnated as the animal of your choice. Which one and why?
11)The Beatles or Elvis?
12)If you could be anywhere in the world at this exact instant, where would that be?
13)Bowling or Billiards?
14)What do you see when you close your eyes?
15)Did you smile at all today?
16)Who's a more fascinating historical figure, Jack the Ripper or John F Kennedy?
17)Frank Zappa, cool and wierd, or just annoying?
18)What's your take on astrology?
19)What's one thing about yourself i don't know?
20)Any questions for me?
Well, i think that runs a pretty broad spectrum or questions. Answer any or all if you feel like it, i'll answer them too. Well, i've blathered on long enough, so goodnight.
One of the boys we stayed with last weekend bought a shortie school bus in Colorado, and he's off picking it up right now. This means i'm going to be scraping and primering and painting a short bus, so we'll have the best damned party bus in p-town. He called us while at the movie, we ignored it, hopefully it wasn't to tell us he broke down, because he has to be at work on monday.
Well, there is only one full day left until my own little lent is upon me. From Sunday, March 27th until May 5th i'm straight-edging it. I've had many reactions to this, from WTF is it, to Why in god's name, to wow. Well, i'ma assume that y'all know what it is, and get down to the why. Mainly, its to prove i can. It all started with a discussion i had with my little sister, who is a born again christian (yeah, i know). She was telling me about what she gave up for lent (internet and reading, to the extent that they entertain her), and why its good. I told her that giving up books was stupid, and that lent is a pointless exercise, because many view it as an excuse to behave for forty days and live to extreme excess for the rest of the year. She said that while i had valid points, the main message was of sacrifice and inner strength. Dammit. That got me thinking about my own behavior, and if there was anything i was doing that i percieved as weakening or a detraction. Of course booze came to mind pretty quickly. I've been drinking way more than usual of late, and given a family history of alcoholism, it has been kind of scaring me. I've also been smoking, which i ostensibly gave up on new year's, and i've been a little potheaded too. Now, my first instinct is to cop out and put it all on extra stress, but to be honest, there hasn't been much more than normal lately, and that would just make my substance usage a crutch anyway, which i will not tolerate in myself. SO basically i've decided to accept my own challenge, and prove that i can actually not use these things, and still have a lot of fun and cope with my stress. This means that from the time i wake up sunday until when i wake up on cinco de mayo, on alcohol, no tobacco, no pot, no caffeine, not even painkillers unless i really need them. This means i may be a grumpy little bitch for a few days, but i really look forward to spending some time with sobriety for a little bit. I must apologise now t oanyone i may offend or insult by refusing their hospitality, but this is really important to me. I will still gladly hang out with anyone i would have before, with or with out bells, but that standard glass of wine or beer will not be in my hand. You should still feel free to do your thing, and if anyone wants to come over and have one of mine, i'll share gladly. I think to reward myself for the self-discipline, i'm going to get one of my tattoos touched up, and get that little spider on my skull, a la spider jerusalem. it should be intersting, to say the least.
Wow, i've gone on and rambled away quite a fair amount of text there, haven't i. it kinda feels cathartic and relaxing, but that may just be the music i'm currently listening to, Deep Forest. Ok, now that you know way more than you wanted to about me, i have questions for you. Answer or not, as you see fit. Please feel free to prattle away as much as you like, i enjoy others' verbosity far more than my own.
1)Have you ever taken up self-sacrifce? If so, why, for how long, what, etc.
2)What music relaxes you, just carries you away to another place for a while?
3)Would you rather be able to breathe underwater, or fly? Why?
4)Considering getting any body mods soon? What, Where, Why?
5)Pancakes or Waffles? Maple syrup, jam, or plain? Hashbrowns or toast? Eggs or tofu? Soysage or Fakin Bacon? Or are you one of those Lucky Charms people? Breakfast is a serious business, and how you answer says a lot to me. Plus, i've been craving diner breakfast lately.
6)Noon or Midnight?
7)What defines "good music" to you?
8)What country would you most like to be the leader of?
9)You have $100 million and three months to live, what do you do?
10)You are going to be reincarnated as the animal of your choice. Which one and why?
11)The Beatles or Elvis?
12)If you could be anywhere in the world at this exact instant, where would that be?
13)Bowling or Billiards?
14)What do you see when you close your eyes?
15)Did you smile at all today?
16)Who's a more fascinating historical figure, Jack the Ripper or John F Kennedy?
17)Frank Zappa, cool and wierd, or just annoying?
18)What's your take on astrology?
19)What's one thing about yourself i don't know?
20)Any questions for me?
Well, i think that runs a pretty broad spectrum or questions. Answer any or all if you feel like it, i'll answer them too. Well, i've blathered on long enough, so goodnight.
1)Have you ever taken up self-sacrifce? If so, why, for how long, what, etc. At first, quitting smoking was mentally difficult though a physical necessity (i had bronchitis so bad i could hardly breathe). Iy has been well over three years now since i have smoked. I guess another would be having sex......i went about a year and a half or two without having sex before i met Greg. I was horny. And i did know guys who would have fucked me. But i withheld, and i am glad. Random sex stresses me out too much emotionally anyway, so i am glad i waited for that reason.
2)What music relaxes you, just carries you away to another place for a while? DEEP FORREST (yesh!), Lisa Gerrard and anything Dead Can Dance, Mazzy Star (sometimes), This Mortal Coil
3)Would you rather be able to breathe underwater, or fly? Why? HA HA HA At first i thought that said breathe underwear! That would be awesome. I will live in your underwear drawer, make sure to toss in some clean underwear every hour or so, cause i need it to breathe!
4)Considering getting any body mods soon? What, Where, Why? I have a lot of tattoo plans, but very few that are completely solid. I have to work on them all a bit. Also, i would love to have my nips done, and i am also very very scared.
5)Pancakes or Waffles? Maple syrup, jam, or plain? Hashbrowns or toast? Eggs or tofu? Soysage or Fakin Bacon? Or are you one of those Lucky Charms people? Breakfast is a serious business, and how you answer says a lot to me. Plus, i've been craving diner breakfast lately.
Pancakes!!!! Preferably with cinnamon apples and maple syrup on them. Definately hash browns, with salt, pepper, a little hot sauce and ketchup. Eggs with grated cheddar on top. Soysage because its not meat, but i don't know if i like the stuff or not. I only like the marshmallows in Lucky Charms when they are dry, they are a little gross when milk'd. Mmmmm. Diner. Except i hate Sharis.
6)Noon or Midnight? Even though i am tired lately by midnight, i would have to choose it, because at noon i am always at work.
7)What defines "good music" to you?
Something i can relate to emotionally, physically (like it makes my hair stand up on end), energetically (makes me want to dance), lyrically or content wise (punk for example, and some metal), or just mood related (honky tonk is certainly mood related). I think i do like some stuff that isn't "good" music per ce, but if it makes me feel good, thats good. also if it seems like the people who made the music really care about it, thats one step closer to "good" status....the passion involved in its creation. Also, there is something to be said of technical skill sometimes.....like "how the fizzuck did they do that?!!! Awesome!"
8)What country would you most like to be the leader of?
Uhhhhhhhhhhhh....Madagascar? I don't know why i said that. They have cool animals, which i wopuld work to protect.....other than that there are no deep political reasons.
9)You have $100 million and three months to live, what do you do? I don't know why this question is so hard. If i bought material goods that would just be dumb considering my impending demise. Eh. Maybe i'd buy a gun so i could die on myt own terms if it got bad enough. Fuck you death! And the rest of the money would go to my parents or greg. No seriously? I would travel i guess. Even if i'm not going to hold on to the memories at least the last part of my life would be interesting and new that way.
10)You are going to be reincarnated as the animal of your choice. Which one and why? The sloth because they can be so slow and have no problem with it at all. They are creepy yet graceful somehow. That, or a flying squirrel just because they are so fricking cute.
11)The Beatles or Elvis? What am i choosing? Which one i'd prefer to listen to right now? Which one i think is better music? Because the answers are different.
12)If you could be anywhere in the world at this exact instant, where would that be? Holland, so long as i had a little more money than i actually do right now.
13)Bowling or Billiards? I just like bowling better. Hucking a heavy ball around is just satisfying somehow.
14)What do you see when you close your eyes? Eyelids.
15)Did you smile at all today? Not really. Yesterday i did a lot.
16)Who's a more fascinating historical figure, Jack the Ripper or John F Kennedy? I would say JFK just because they still arenh't really sure the whole Jack the Ripper thing was really true.....more like a historical myth that could have a real basis in truth but they never did find him....so he's an enigma, but, maybe he's not even real? Maybe he IS more fascinating than JFK, in that sense.
17)Frank Zappa, cool and wierd, or just annoying? All of the above. Depends on my mood, Frankly (har har).
18)What's your take on astrology? You know me, i think its a cop out.
19)What's one thing about yourself i don't know? Ask me something. I don't know what you don't know about me. Heres one thing....i think my first boyfriend from middle school might be in the Rocky Horror production that we are going to see. Thats a not veryinteresting fact.
20)Any questions for me? What do you want out of life right now? Had any interesting dreams lately? What do you want to do when you grow up?