I'm depressed, I'll admit it. I think it will pass, but I feel icky right now, I hate this. I'm sure I'll get over it. But, I just can't stand it right now. I want to be happy, I had a fun night laughing with my closest friends, but then everyone goes to bed and I'm alone. It's wierd though, because I really do LOVE be alone, alone, you know by myself, alone. But, I want SOMEONE to hug and cuddle with, then I wouldn't get all icky like this. Blah!
To conform or not to conform.......
That is the question.
So, I had an interview at Sephora (the makeup store) on Monday, and it went really well, and I'm pretty sure I got a good chance of getting the job. The thing is, if I take the job, I have to remove my facial piercings. I have my lip and a monroe. I was kinda thinking about maybe taking my lip ring out anyway, I've had for over a year now. But I love my monroe!!! Is it unresponsible and childish to want to keep them, and find work elsewhere, even though I have been jobless for over a month and rent is due soon, and I'm getting desperate. Or would I just be giving in to the MAN by conforming to his cookie-cutter image of a retail associate, in an upscale makeup store??? I'm sad. I'm broke. I hate this.
In other news: I saw Eighteen Visions last sunday, they played with Time in Malta, and Saosin. It was an awesome show.....Talk aboput a confidence boost, one of the The Time in Malta techs, told me I was hot, and kissed my hand, and then proceeded to come out from behind the merch table and ask to take a picture with me, I was EXTREMELY flattered. It was nice to hear, no doubt. Too bad I had my eye on the 18V merch boy, he had Paul Frank Scurvy boxers on! GOD! he was such a cutie!
Last Thursday and SAturday, I went dancing at the CAt Club in SAn Fransisco,, I had a great time on both nights. I drank a bit on SAturday, which is unlike me to do, I hate that I did drink. It make sme angry that, maybe I have to drink to be more outgoing and have fun... I hope that is not the case, I don't want to end up like my mother... ugh.
This is by far the longest journal I've written on SG. It's like 3 of my journals from My Space compiled into one. New pics posted as well... Hooray!
To conform or not to conform.......
That is the question.
So, I had an interview at Sephora (the makeup store) on Monday, and it went really well, and I'm pretty sure I got a good chance of getting the job. The thing is, if I take the job, I have to remove my facial piercings. I have my lip and a monroe. I was kinda thinking about maybe taking my lip ring out anyway, I've had for over a year now. But I love my monroe!!! Is it unresponsible and childish to want to keep them, and find work elsewhere, even though I have been jobless for over a month and rent is due soon, and I'm getting desperate. Or would I just be giving in to the MAN by conforming to his cookie-cutter image of a retail associate, in an upscale makeup store??? I'm sad. I'm broke. I hate this.
In other news: I saw Eighteen Visions last sunday, they played with Time in Malta, and Saosin. It was an awesome show.....Talk aboput a confidence boost, one of the The Time in Malta techs, told me I was hot, and kissed my hand, and then proceeded to come out from behind the merch table and ask to take a picture with me, I was EXTREMELY flattered. It was nice to hear, no doubt. Too bad I had my eye on the 18V merch boy, he had Paul Frank Scurvy boxers on! GOD! he was such a cutie!
Last Thursday and SAturday, I went dancing at the CAt Club in SAn Fransisco,, I had a great time on both nights. I drank a bit on SAturday, which is unlike me to do, I hate that I did drink. It make sme angry that, maybe I have to drink to be more outgoing and have fun... I hope that is not the case, I don't want to end up like my mother... ugh.
This is by far the longest journal I've written on SG. It's like 3 of my journals from My Space compiled into one. New pics posted as well... Hooray!
much love
GPK
P.S love the pics,your looking beatiful as always
[Edited on Oct 25, 2003 10:58AM]