Everything is Illuminated...... Except my Hair.
Firstly, I colored my hair yesterday. I channeled Miss. JaiDee a lot oddly, and did the dark hair and the light bottom. I dunno how I like it yet on me. Frankly, I'm afraid I'm not cool enough for this hair. But, if anything I'm sure my stylist (I hate that word) will help me out, and be understanding that it was out of some sort of "I'm sad, color hair time!"
"I DUNNO IF THIS WAS SMART!"
I had This dream that my dad woke me up when I needed to get ready for school (which is odd considering I don't live at home) but he got me out of bed, and we went to some bridge, and looked off of it and watched the sun come up. I feel like that was trying to tell me something.
I also woke up at about 3 and stayed up for maybe 2 hours thinking about stuff that went on last week. How great it was, how I'm sad now I have to get back to the grind, how I'm kiiinda aloneish.
Then also I got to thinking about how sheltered I've always sorta been. In an odd way, like, I've thought I was independant, but I wasn't really. And how I need to take risks, because I don't feel like I ever have because I've been too afraid. I thought maybe I should take the trip to Boston and see my friend Sa'iyda soon, cos I've even been afraid to do that.
I have never been outside of the United States (except for 2 visits to Canada pre-9-11). I have also never traveled alone without a parent. Never even to Texas to see my gramma, which was always something she said I should do. I regret that I never did.
I have to get a passport. Hopefully come october I have a job. Also, either or, maybe I'll mention a Christmas present that I want, and NOTHING else from anyone. Money, or plane tickets. Obviously, if you read my journal, or know me, you know where.
It's time to grow up. Which is what I've been terrified to do the most.
Firstly, I colored my hair yesterday. I channeled Miss. JaiDee a lot oddly, and did the dark hair and the light bottom. I dunno how I like it yet on me. Frankly, I'm afraid I'm not cool enough for this hair. But, if anything I'm sure my stylist (I hate that word) will help me out, and be understanding that it was out of some sort of "I'm sad, color hair time!"
"I DUNNO IF THIS WAS SMART!"
I had This dream that my dad woke me up when I needed to get ready for school (which is odd considering I don't live at home) but he got me out of bed, and we went to some bridge, and looked off of it and watched the sun come up. I feel like that was trying to tell me something.
I also woke up at about 3 and stayed up for maybe 2 hours thinking about stuff that went on last week. How great it was, how I'm sad now I have to get back to the grind, how I'm kiiinda aloneish.
Then also I got to thinking about how sheltered I've always sorta been. In an odd way, like, I've thought I was independant, but I wasn't really. And how I need to take risks, because I don't feel like I ever have because I've been too afraid. I thought maybe I should take the trip to Boston and see my friend Sa'iyda soon, cos I've even been afraid to do that.
I have never been outside of the United States (except for 2 visits to Canada pre-9-11). I have also never traveled alone without a parent. Never even to Texas to see my gramma, which was always something she said I should do. I regret that I never did.
I have to get a passport. Hopefully come october I have a job. Also, either or, maybe I'll mention a Christmas present that I want, and NOTHING else from anyone. Money, or plane tickets. Obviously, if you read my journal, or know me, you know where.
It's time to grow up. Which is what I've been terrified to do the most.
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i knew your SName dorko
you know me, i likey the travel thing...it can be nice & cheap if you're willing to suffer a bit & work on it & stay on a tight budget, you can have a total blast with global travels...(hint: It may be cheaper for you both to meet somewhere that's a direct flight for you both!)
Y~!