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broke up with my boyfriend today after getting this message from his sister.
lol you obviously dont know dave. he really doesnt give a fuck. he only acts to give a fuck so you would stop bitching at him. remember that day when bear went through the window and was bleeding? when dave and i went into the car to get stuff for bear little dave told me exactly that he didnt fucking care. he just does shit to shut you the fuck up, hes told me numerous times so. ive known dave a whole lot longer than you, and i know little dave doesn't care about insignificant things like that. chances are well hang out, hell bitch about you, and when he comes home hell tell you that he scolded me just so you can leave him alone and stop bitching him all the time
If only she knew the half of it.. Can it really be considered 'bitching' when he really does keep doing things wrong? When he repeatedly makes me feel like shit, Am I the bad guy for calling him out on it(aka 'bitching')?? I just cant handle it anymore. Everything she said was TRUE. He has done this to me so many times in so many different ways..
Im such a complete mess right now. Anxiety attacks all day. Today while I was out with my friends tryign to distract myself, I suddenly felt violently ill and I was CONVINCED something bad happened to my pig. I kept imagining her screaming and stuck on something in my head. Honestly that pig is the ONLY reason I havent killed myself 1000 times over, she's my baby. So whenever Im stressed I feel like bad things happen to her.
Im a fucking fucked up person. By this time tomorrow, I'll be out of my tree bat shit crazy.