kristal_

I've been a fan and follower for so long. I remember seeing the first tour when I was 14 and falling in love with SG. Immediately after my 18 birthday I applied.

The people in my life (even up to this day) always discouraged me from submitting a set. because I do not fit in with any other girls on here. I have no piercings, or tattoos. But I always felt like being a SuicideGirl is more than that. I always saw SG an outlet for all females who don't fit into the "beautiful" category to express themselves.

Now that I am a member and see more of all the girls here past and present I've been questioning whether I have what it takes to become one. I am very different from all the other girls but is that a bad thing?

Are people here going to look at me and my set and go "She's not SG material" Will this nearly 5 year old dream of mine never come true. Normally I have this attitude of "Eh. Fuck it. It wasn't meant to be" but for this moment I can't say that.

I'm writing this blog here NOT for pity or comments or anything. Only because I just needed to write and if I did it anywhere else then my family and friends will be ALL UP IN MY BUSINESS. I've been really stressed lately because this is the week of my shoot and I can sense shit falling apart.

So...If you read this thanks. This has just been on my mind lately since I joined. OK! Now I need to liven this shit up...

This probably isn't the best song to end this blog with because of it's lyrics LMAO. Don't take this literal.


But this is one of my favorite songs by NIN.