kris10

the things that are the worst for us taste so sweet. i don't want to..but i do. the things i wish for, and the things i convince myself of..horrible.


i just want to crawl into my bed, and cuddle with popples, and listen to music as i drift to sleep.


but my bed is covered with crap, and the task of dumping it all on...
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it's now two.


i want applause. now damnit.


[also, is it really pathetic that i am giggly today? like really pathetic, or just so-so pathetic?]

i am now taking applications for a personal assistant. the job includes you doing shit i don't want to do, ie,

*going to the bank.
*paying my bills after going to said bank.
*getting me food.
*getting me drinks when the bartender is either ugly, or slow.
*cleaning my room on a regular basis.
*laundry.
*french.

the pay for this job is quite extraordinary: you...
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happy october?


i am extremely tired, as last night's sleep/pass out was not good. dreams where people who i seemingly <3-ed give me advice about themselves are never good. this is now two weeks in a row, and i am beginning to think that not sleeping is better. i hate the games, and i hate the moving, and i hate the situation, but what can...
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i want my beer. fuck this shit.


all the mets needed to do was win every game for the rest of the season. and what do they do? give up about 23 billion homeruns in a row. bastards, i tell ya. bastards.


i am tired of having to deal with everyone else's problems. especially when i can't deal with my own. avoidance is key.


school...
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i feel normal-er than i have in years. who cares? i'm still insane.


tonight is ska is dead 3. i haven't been to a ska show since before it died. like, 99, maybe 2000. i wish i was going.


i want to go shows. i feel like i never go to any. probably because i never do.



i always feel better on fridays, because i...
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my right calf feels much like it is burning. why?


there's a fire burning inside of me.



why am i home, alone, bored on a saturday night?


because i make no effort.



you would think that i would be doing one of the many things i should be doing, but alas, i am not. i have a story due sometime this week, and i have...
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the best toast i have heard to date:

"may the best of your past be the worst of your future."

currently, i am a little tipsy.


and currently, i am realizing i like this boy.



and more currently, i am going to go pass out face down, with my clothes still on. because i am just too lazy to put pajamas on.

meat.