So today is a life awareness blog for Kraven. And I am sorry if this isn't the typical Kraven you guys like to read of. But I feel SG is my outlet. I can tell you all things, even though I have never met half of you and yet most of you either agree with me or you understand even if you do not agree.....
I had a real eye opener last night when I attended a good college friend and sorority sisters wedding. I have a job where I work different days every week. My days off are never consistent and I always work weekend unless I request them off as they are the busiest days of the week. So I never really get to go out and see my friends as often as they all hang out. I always make it a point to ask how things go even if I can not attend as I do love all my friends. I just cant take off work that often. I am barely making ends meet as it is. I need all the days of work I can get. Anyways....it is like over time they have quit asking me to do things. And while yes I usually am working...it is the thought that counts. And I may be able to take off here and there when I can. But they don't even ask me to do anything anymore. So I went to the wedding last night and the bride of course was beautiful and she talked to everyone that is just how she is. Such a good person. But other then that. Not one of my friends....and I am talking best friends....acted like they could of cared less I was there. I felt really awkward. And this is a really hard thing for me to go through and feel. I instantly shut my doors and put up a wall and get stubborn. I was the social bird of the group. I talked to everyone. I loved them all. They all came to me for advice and always needed me. And because I cant go out with them every weekend like they all do....they have shut me out of the group and struggled to keep a conversation with me. I was so sad.
It made me take a good look at my life and realize growing up sucks. You lose touch with a lot of people. And this bothers me more then it bothers some as I am such a good friend to people. I care too much sometimes and I am loyal until I am proved I need to be otherwise. So to care so much about all of them and love each of them dearly....it just hurt to be shut out like that.
I have been contemplating a move. And in my head the places I keep going to are Ohio and LA. And I have my reasons for why. And they always come back to this site. If it makes any sense I can only explain it like this....I have lost a lot of people in my life because they do not understand my life, they do not understand that artistic jobs such as working in a photography studio or freelancing is usually always done on the weekends. They don't understand why I have all the ink. They don't understand why I like to be as colorful as I am. And they get tired of hearing about SG. But thats just it. SG has become a huge part of my life. I have meet so many great people on here. PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND ME AND MY LIFESTYLE. So that is why I have been contemplating a move to Ohio or LA for a while. As I know so many ladies off this site from both of those places that I know I would get along with...become friends with and well to be honest people that understand me. Because I was shown I do not think people who I thought were my friends....care to anymore.
I need a change. That is what I do at times like this. A fresh start and I do not know how to get it. I have to have a job to financially move to either of these places and working in a photography studio is what I have done the past 7 years. I also am great as organizational skills and counciling others as they both are in my major that I am not even using. But I feel lost. I do not know anything about either place enough to know how to just find a job and move. I feel like I am whining and not even trying. If that makes any sense. I need a change....a better job.....good friends who understand me and know that I love the lifestyle I have now. And I may not go out all the time partying til 5 am....but I still am super fun to be around. Baking cookie days with Kraven is always fun ok!!!!! HAHAHA
I have been through a lot in the past year or two of my life. And I have had way more downs then ups. A divorce that left me in so much debt it isn't even funny. Medical bills piling up, losing my doggies, going from a house to a apartment I could barely afford was a huge shock to me, losing friends who didn't want to remain friends with me after the divorce as they were his friends too, struggling to make ends meet, working my ass off at a job that did not recognize it, I know I know it is the story of a lot of people's lives.....but you know I am ready for my good times......to outweigh the bad.
I am ready for a change. I am determined to make it happen. Not sue how with little money and little time....but I need to find a way to finally have some good. And to have people around me who love me for who I am now....not who I use to be.
ANYWAYS....THANK YOU SG....NO MATTER HOW FRUSTRATED I GET AT MY SETS NOT GOING UP WHEN I THINK THEY SHOULD...NO MATTER HOW FRUSTRATED I GET WITH HOW SOME GIRLS TREAT EACH OTHER ON HERE...AS I REALLY AM THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO JUST WANTS EVERYONE TO GET ALONG...I CANT HELP IT I AM TOO NICE. THAT'S JUST HOW I AM. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ME, SUPPORTING ME AND GIVING ME AN OUTLET WHERE I HAVE FOUND SOME OF THE BEST PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A PLACE TO VENT AND UNDERSTANDING. THAT IS MORE THEN I CAN SAY I HAVE IN MY EVERY DAY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
<333333333 YOU ALL.
Ok now that I am done being emotional.....well I mean back to hiding it and pretending to be strong that is.....
I cant leave the blog with only bad......
So what have I been up to lately? Well I went to the zoo...which I always love.... I attended a wedding....which was beautiful..... I have been sitting by camp fires enjoying the crisp cool air..... I have been working a ton....I finally am excited for television now that my shows are all starting again. I have gone the past 5 months without TV....which is insane....I was addicted to the TV. And I can honestly say the past 5 months I have not watch a single tv show. I mean I still watch movies. But no TV. It is weird. But I can't miss Vampire Diaries and Grey's Anatomy.....so I am excited to watch those again.
I am turning 28 in about 2 months and that is freaking me out. I do not want to get older. I do not want to ever have my time here seize because I am starting to look to old for my sets to get accepted. I mean for real. I am terrified of getting older and looking it. Just a fear I have. BLAH BLAH. BOTOX HERE I COME I GUESS. Also I updated my wishlist for those of you who asked! I just updated it with some things I could really use in my new apartment.
SO HERE ARE SOME PICS:
SHOES I WANT!!!!
SOMEBODY FIND THEM FOR ME!!!!
WHAT'S YOUR BEST FEATURE?
VA VA VOOM BOOTY?
BOUNCY BOOBIES?
BONEY STRUCTURE AND FEATURES?
GORGEOUS HAIR?
PIERCING EYES?
CONTAGIOUS SMILE?
SEXILICIOUS LIPS?
AND BOOBIES....CAUSE I CARE!
I had a real eye opener last night when I attended a good college friend and sorority sisters wedding. I have a job where I work different days every week. My days off are never consistent and I always work weekend unless I request them off as they are the busiest days of the week. So I never really get to go out and see my friends as often as they all hang out. I always make it a point to ask how things go even if I can not attend as I do love all my friends. I just cant take off work that often. I am barely making ends meet as it is. I need all the days of work I can get. Anyways....it is like over time they have quit asking me to do things. And while yes I usually am working...it is the thought that counts. And I may be able to take off here and there when I can. But they don't even ask me to do anything anymore. So I went to the wedding last night and the bride of course was beautiful and she talked to everyone that is just how she is. Such a good person. But other then that. Not one of my friends....and I am talking best friends....acted like they could of cared less I was there. I felt really awkward. And this is a really hard thing for me to go through and feel. I instantly shut my doors and put up a wall and get stubborn. I was the social bird of the group. I talked to everyone. I loved them all. They all came to me for advice and always needed me. And because I cant go out with them every weekend like they all do....they have shut me out of the group and struggled to keep a conversation with me. I was so sad.
It made me take a good look at my life and realize growing up sucks. You lose touch with a lot of people. And this bothers me more then it bothers some as I am such a good friend to people. I care too much sometimes and I am loyal until I am proved I need to be otherwise. So to care so much about all of them and love each of them dearly....it just hurt to be shut out like that.
I have been contemplating a move. And in my head the places I keep going to are Ohio and LA. And I have my reasons for why. And they always come back to this site. If it makes any sense I can only explain it like this....I have lost a lot of people in my life because they do not understand my life, they do not understand that artistic jobs such as working in a photography studio or freelancing is usually always done on the weekends. They don't understand why I have all the ink. They don't understand why I like to be as colorful as I am. And they get tired of hearing about SG. But thats just it. SG has become a huge part of my life. I have meet so many great people on here. PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND ME AND MY LIFESTYLE. So that is why I have been contemplating a move to Ohio or LA for a while. As I know so many ladies off this site from both of those places that I know I would get along with...become friends with and well to be honest people that understand me. Because I was shown I do not think people who I thought were my friends....care to anymore.
I need a change. That is what I do at times like this. A fresh start and I do not know how to get it. I have to have a job to financially move to either of these places and working in a photography studio is what I have done the past 7 years. I also am great as organizational skills and counciling others as they both are in my major that I am not even using. But I feel lost. I do not know anything about either place enough to know how to just find a job and move. I feel like I am whining and not even trying. If that makes any sense. I need a change....a better job.....good friends who understand me and know that I love the lifestyle I have now. And I may not go out all the time partying til 5 am....but I still am super fun to be around. Baking cookie days with Kraven is always fun ok!!!!! HAHAHA
I have been through a lot in the past year or two of my life. And I have had way more downs then ups. A divorce that left me in so much debt it isn't even funny. Medical bills piling up, losing my doggies, going from a house to a apartment I could barely afford was a huge shock to me, losing friends who didn't want to remain friends with me after the divorce as they were his friends too, struggling to make ends meet, working my ass off at a job that did not recognize it, I know I know it is the story of a lot of people's lives.....but you know I am ready for my good times......to outweigh the bad.
I am ready for a change. I am determined to make it happen. Not sue how with little money and little time....but I need to find a way to finally have some good. And to have people around me who love me for who I am now....not who I use to be.
ANYWAYS....THANK YOU SG....NO MATTER HOW FRUSTRATED I GET AT MY SETS NOT GOING UP WHEN I THINK THEY SHOULD...NO MATTER HOW FRUSTRATED I GET WITH HOW SOME GIRLS TREAT EACH OTHER ON HERE...AS I REALLY AM THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO JUST WANTS EVERYONE TO GET ALONG...I CANT HELP IT I AM TOO NICE. THAT'S JUST HOW I AM. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ME, SUPPORTING ME AND GIVING ME AN OUTLET WHERE I HAVE FOUND SOME OF THE BEST PEOPLE I KNOW IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A PLACE TO VENT AND UNDERSTANDING. THAT IS MORE THEN I CAN SAY I HAVE IN MY EVERY DAY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
<333333333 YOU ALL. Ok now that I am done being emotional.....well I mean back to hiding it and pretending to be strong that is.....
I cant leave the blog with only bad......
So what have I been up to lately? Well I went to the zoo...which I always love.... I attended a wedding....which was beautiful..... I have been sitting by camp fires enjoying the crisp cool air..... I have been working a ton....I finally am excited for television now that my shows are all starting again. I have gone the past 5 months without TV....which is insane....I was addicted to the TV. And I can honestly say the past 5 months I have not watch a single tv show. I mean I still watch movies. But no TV. It is weird. But I can't miss Vampire Diaries and Grey's Anatomy.....so I am excited to watch those again.
I am turning 28 in about 2 months and that is freaking me out. I do not want to get older. I do not want to ever have my time here seize because I am starting to look to old for my sets to get accepted. I mean for real. I am terrified of getting older and looking it. Just a fear I have. BLAH BLAH. BOTOX HERE I COME I GUESS. Also I updated my wishlist for those of you who asked! I just updated it with some things I could really use in my new apartment.
SO HERE ARE SOME PICS:
SHOES I WANT!!!!
SOMEBODY FIND THEM FOR ME!!!!
WHAT'S YOUR BEST FEATURE?
VA VA VOOM BOOTY?
BOUNCY BOOBIES?
BONEY STRUCTURE AND FEATURES?
GORGEOUS HAIR?
PIERCING EYES?
CONTAGIOUS SMILE?
SEXILICIOUS LIPS?
AND BOOBIES....CAUSE I CARE!
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scottsmallin:
FUNNNNNNY!!!!!!! I was about to come post.. "I've been right here. I've been putting Sweet Treats in the "What did you eat today" Thread and you haven't been commenting on them." Did you see the Brownie and icecream back before the Fig pie??
vip77:
Come to New Orleans, you'd love it here...