So you all are probably gonna start reading this and be like " Oh blah boring another stupid resolution blog...pass!" But I am a list person....really weird but when I write things down and can look at them I actually accomplish whats on the list. It's like a constant reminder get off your ass and do something....you said you were gonna. I also know so many people make lists and forget about them or stop half way through. But I am determined to follow this list in no particular order and accomplish what I put on it....or at least try to the best of my ability.
THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH IN 2011
1. GET MY HEALTH ON TRACK
~ So I know you get random blogs here and there but I really want to talk about this because it is hard to not be understood. I grew up a healthy person...played a ton of sports left high school in incredible shape...then went to college did the typical drinking thing and partied my ass off. I was still very healthy. I also was a size 12....crazy right? Anyways 2 years into college my Step Mom went through a issue and discovered she couldn't have kids. My mind got to thinking and I told myself I am not using my eggs at this point in time and looked into helping another family who's dream was just to have a child. So I did a ton of research and decided I was going to donate my eggs. I had a closed donation, meaning I never got to meet the family but I did get messages and gifts from them and while they didn't directly say they had a child their last message after the donation led me to believe they did. It was an amazing feeling. Giving someone something they wanted so bad. And I know they will be great parents.
Anyways that was just background info because it all went normal. Nothing bad happened. Easy surgery. Back on my feet the same day. But then a week later I was in the ER for incredible stomach pains. Any time I tried to eat anything...and I mean like 3 bites of food.... I would bloat so bad it was so uncomfortable and I felt like my stomach was eating it's self or going to explode. Well they ran all kinds of tests.... everything they thought would be related to the egg donation. Found nothing. So for the next 4 to 8 months I was in and out of the ER always with the same stomach pain...and got test after test done. Gallbladder was a little low, but that was it. Blood work fine, stomach was emptying fine, no ulcers. Etc etc. So long story short I have been dealing with this for 2 years now. It was like living with the flu day in and day out...and it gets really bad sometimes to where I cant take the pain and land myself in the ER. All they do is run tests and send me home so doped up I crash. Not to be gross but I am hoping maybe one of you has an idea of what this could be??? ANYONE ?? Ever donated eggs had this same issue? I was fine til I did this. I just keep thinking it messed with some hormone that was in charge of doing something in my body and now it no longer is??? Because of the hormones they pumped me full of? I don't know.... anyways I gave up trying to figure it out. And dealt with it for all this time. But I am tired, worn down, stressed day in and day out and I am just not the same happy goofball I use to be. It is hard to see the toll it has taken on my body. I can see it in my face...sunken in eyes, purple under them, just zombie looking.
Well anyways...that is the story and I know a lot of you have been wondering and ask about it...that is all I got... I don't know. But I wanna. I wanna figure it out. I wanna get back to the person I was. And if I cant then I at least want to know how to deal with it better and manage it to where I can go out and do things. Living a life where your day is determined by how you feel is not a life to live. I feel people think I use it as an excuse to not go out. Are you kidding me? I am such a party person. I love people....and I would much rather be out...then laying in bed. I also wish people understood and cut me some slack from time to time. But that is that ...and I deal. So IT IS MY MISSION THIS YEAR TO FIGURING THIS OUT!!!!!!
2. START A COLLECTION OF SOMETHING!
I was watching a Pawn Stars marathon on TV the other day and then I read Radeo's blog....and I decided I need a collection of something. I kinda wanna start collecting all my favorite cartoons. To have all my old cartoons on dvd to watch would be epic. It gives me something to do.....a hobby per say. Haha
3. CREATE MORE EPIC SETS FOR SG
I know I shoot quite a bit.... but I haven't been shooting as much lately...and while I think it is a good thing to space out great sets...and give them their time to shine... I don't wanna shoot more....that would be excessive and you all would be like oh god not another Kraven set hahahah.... but I wanna shoot with Photogs I have been wanting to work with and have not gotten the chance. And to continue to work with my favorite photgraphers that I love working with and create really neat creative sets. Higher quality. More thought....etc. I have a really overworked mind... youd be surprised with the ideas and creativity that lingers in there hahah.
Alissa It is a must we work together this year!!!! Been wanting a collaboration with her from day one!!!
DarrylDarko if you come to Chicago it is a must you hit me up to shoot! Such a great new photog on this site!!
Lorelei you know I love ya lady and can't wait for an oppurtunity to work with you and hang out with you again.
Brooklyn same to you. Always a pleasure to work with you and hopefully we can do it again!!!
ScottSmallin Got the pleasure of meeting you last year and I know we have talked about working together again! BBC for life! hahah
Writeboy It is already in the works and we have a few ideas already stirring to work on. I love your style and your work. You make me look hot and lets face it...that is a task hahah!!!
There are soooo many others that I want to work with...and if the oppurtunity arises you know I will take it... but probably unlikely as they are far away....but here is to wishful hoping that Sean, Waikiki, Shazzy, or P_mod are in the same area the same time I am.
4. STARTING A TAT FUND.......
Hahaha jk kinda. I have so much work that needs to be finished. And I would be if I had the money. Let's face it ink is expensive.
~ Finish my back piece and color it in.
~ Fix and cover my arm to make a sleeve.
~ Cover my thigh tat as I no longer want that a part of my body and create a thigh sleeve.
Those are musts that I'd like to get done. I am sick of new sets coming out with no updates or progress on my ink work hahah.
5. BAKING MORE
I love spending time in the kitchen making deserts and lil goodies. I haven't been baking as much as I can or would like to. Plus for Christmas I got a Babycakes mini cupcake maker and it makes it so easy to make cute lil deserts. I wanna learn to make things as pretty as Cupcake wars on TV hahah....and well just learn to bake better in general.
6. STOP DRINKING PEPSI
This will be the hardest task of the year I think. No REALLY! I am addicted. I get headaches and dizzy when I don't drink it. On a normal day I probably drink 5 cans a day. INSANE BAD BAD. Key to this success....small baby steps hahha.
7. GET MY PHOTOGRAPHY BUSINESS STARTED AND GOING IN FULL SWING.
Meaning I need to create a website and quit letting my anxiety hold me back. I have the talent, I have the equipment now..and there is no reason I shouldn't be showing the world my talent. I would love love love to be a SG photog and I know so many of us say that. But I need to learn a bit more and update my brain with photoshop before I give that a try. Let's face it.... you gotta show perfection to be good on this site.
8. GET OUT OF DEBT
I am on my way...have made a good chunk away at this. But going through a divorce and having student loans is hard to get out of. But one day at a time....I am getting closer.
9. I WOULD LOVE TO GET MY BOOBS FIXED
I know this seems a little superficial to some... but my body has been through a lot this past year and going from a size 12 to a size 2 well you lose your boobs. So while my boobs looked good after surgery 5 years ago...they are a little messed up now. I gotta get out of debt first but then this is my next mission to save for.
10. BE A HAPPIER, MORE POSITIVE PERSON!!!!
(ALL THESE IMAGES WERE FOUND ON PHOTOBUCKET.COM)
THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH IN 2011
1. GET MY HEALTH ON TRACK
~ So I know you get random blogs here and there but I really want to talk about this because it is hard to not be understood. I grew up a healthy person...played a ton of sports left high school in incredible shape...then went to college did the typical drinking thing and partied my ass off. I was still very healthy. I also was a size 12....crazy right? Anyways 2 years into college my Step Mom went through a issue and discovered she couldn't have kids. My mind got to thinking and I told myself I am not using my eggs at this point in time and looked into helping another family who's dream was just to have a child. So I did a ton of research and decided I was going to donate my eggs. I had a closed donation, meaning I never got to meet the family but I did get messages and gifts from them and while they didn't directly say they had a child their last message after the donation led me to believe they did. It was an amazing feeling. Giving someone something they wanted so bad. And I know they will be great parents.
Anyways that was just background info because it all went normal. Nothing bad happened. Easy surgery. Back on my feet the same day. But then a week later I was in the ER for incredible stomach pains. Any time I tried to eat anything...and I mean like 3 bites of food.... I would bloat so bad it was so uncomfortable and I felt like my stomach was eating it's self or going to explode. Well they ran all kinds of tests.... everything they thought would be related to the egg donation. Found nothing. So for the next 4 to 8 months I was in and out of the ER always with the same stomach pain...and got test after test done. Gallbladder was a little low, but that was it. Blood work fine, stomach was emptying fine, no ulcers. Etc etc. So long story short I have been dealing with this for 2 years now. It was like living with the flu day in and day out...and it gets really bad sometimes to where I cant take the pain and land myself in the ER. All they do is run tests and send me home so doped up I crash. Not to be gross but I am hoping maybe one of you has an idea of what this could be??? ANYONE ?? Ever donated eggs had this same issue? I was fine til I did this. I just keep thinking it messed with some hormone that was in charge of doing something in my body and now it no longer is??? Because of the hormones they pumped me full of? I don't know.... anyways I gave up trying to figure it out. And dealt with it for all this time. But I am tired, worn down, stressed day in and day out and I am just not the same happy goofball I use to be. It is hard to see the toll it has taken on my body. I can see it in my face...sunken in eyes, purple under them, just zombie looking. Well anyways...that is the story and I know a lot of you have been wondering and ask about it...that is all I got... I don't know. But I wanna. I wanna figure it out. I wanna get back to the person I was. And if I cant then I at least want to know how to deal with it better and manage it to where I can go out and do things. Living a life where your day is determined by how you feel is not a life to live. I feel people think I use it as an excuse to not go out. Are you kidding me? I am such a party person. I love people....and I would much rather be out...then laying in bed. I also wish people understood and cut me some slack from time to time. But that is that ...and I deal. So IT IS MY MISSION THIS YEAR TO FIGURING THIS OUT!!!!!!
2. START A COLLECTION OF SOMETHING!
I was watching a Pawn Stars marathon on TV the other day and then I read Radeo's blog....and I decided I need a collection of something. I kinda wanna start collecting all my favorite cartoons. To have all my old cartoons on dvd to watch would be epic. It gives me something to do.....a hobby per say. Haha
3. CREATE MORE EPIC SETS FOR SG
I know I shoot quite a bit.... but I haven't been shooting as much lately...and while I think it is a good thing to space out great sets...and give them their time to shine... I don't wanna shoot more....that would be excessive and you all would be like oh god not another Kraven set hahahah.... but I wanna shoot with Photogs I have been wanting to work with and have not gotten the chance. And to continue to work with my favorite photgraphers that I love working with and create really neat creative sets. Higher quality. More thought....etc. I have a really overworked mind... youd be surprised with the ideas and creativity that lingers in there hahah.
Alissa It is a must we work together this year!!!! Been wanting a collaboration with her from day one!!!
DarrylDarko if you come to Chicago it is a must you hit me up to shoot! Such a great new photog on this site!!
Lorelei you know I love ya lady and can't wait for an oppurtunity to work with you and hang out with you again.
Brooklyn same to you. Always a pleasure to work with you and hopefully we can do it again!!!
ScottSmallin Got the pleasure of meeting you last year and I know we have talked about working together again! BBC for life! hahah
Writeboy It is already in the works and we have a few ideas already stirring to work on. I love your style and your work. You make me look hot and lets face it...that is a task hahah!!!
There are soooo many others that I want to work with...and if the oppurtunity arises you know I will take it... but probably unlikely as they are far away....but here is to wishful hoping that Sean, Waikiki, Shazzy, or P_mod are in the same area the same time I am.
4. STARTING A TAT FUND.......
Hahaha jk kinda. I have so much work that needs to be finished. And I would be if I had the money. Let's face it ink is expensive.
~ Finish my back piece and color it in.
~ Fix and cover my arm to make a sleeve.
~ Cover my thigh tat as I no longer want that a part of my body and create a thigh sleeve.
Those are musts that I'd like to get done. I am sick of new sets coming out with no updates or progress on my ink work hahah.
5. BAKING MORE
I love spending time in the kitchen making deserts and lil goodies. I haven't been baking as much as I can or would like to. Plus for Christmas I got a Babycakes mini cupcake maker and it makes it so easy to make cute lil deserts. I wanna learn to make things as pretty as Cupcake wars on TV hahah....and well just learn to bake better in general.
6. STOP DRINKING PEPSI
This will be the hardest task of the year I think. No REALLY! I am addicted. I get headaches and dizzy when I don't drink it. On a normal day I probably drink 5 cans a day. INSANE BAD BAD. Key to this success....small baby steps hahha.
7. GET MY PHOTOGRAPHY BUSINESS STARTED AND GOING IN FULL SWING.
Meaning I need to create a website and quit letting my anxiety hold me back. I have the talent, I have the equipment now..and there is no reason I shouldn't be showing the world my talent. I would love love love to be a SG photog and I know so many of us say that. But I need to learn a bit more and update my brain with photoshop before I give that a try. Let's face it.... you gotta show perfection to be good on this site.
8. GET OUT OF DEBT
I am on my way...have made a good chunk away at this. But going through a divorce and having student loans is hard to get out of. But one day at a time....I am getting closer.
9. I WOULD LOVE TO GET MY BOOBS FIXED
I know this seems a little superficial to some... but my body has been through a lot this past year and going from a size 12 to a size 2 well you lose your boobs. So while my boobs looked good after surgery 5 years ago...they are a little messed up now. I gotta get out of debt first but then this is my next mission to save for.
10. BE A HAPPIER, MORE POSITIVE PERSON!!!!
(ALL THESE IMAGES WERE FOUND ON PHOTOBUCKET.COM)
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Thanks for the message. I just read #1 on your list and sent you a message back. Contact me if you think you can get help from this corner of the world..
Cheers, and get well soon!
I see you have a bunch of kickass sets lined up as well.
Yay for 2011!