Went to dinner in Santa Fe last night with my ex- If any of you guys ever end up there be sure to check it out.. its called Jinja and is has great food and an amazingly dark brooding atmosphere.
The ex and I are forming a friendship- its always hard to go from lovers to friends- I keep having to reinforce my brain of all the crappy shit (which there was/is alot of) when we have a good time together. Friendship allows me to distance myself and the move will really help. Prob is that he is considering going to Denver as well- While it would be nice to be able to see him around from time to time I am trying my best to dissuade him of that notion. I need to live my own life and be distanced a little from him emotionally, and the distance is the only way I can see that happening.
How many times have I used the words distance here?
Still excited about the move, just feeling a little sad and maybe scared today that a part of my life is coming to an end -Even though I know the future holds bright things.
"Fear not for the future, weep not for the past."
The ex and I are forming a friendship- its always hard to go from lovers to friends- I keep having to reinforce my brain of all the crappy shit (which there was/is alot of) when we have a good time together. Friendship allows me to distance myself and the move will really help. Prob is that he is considering going to Denver as well- While it would be nice to be able to see him around from time to time I am trying my best to dissuade him of that notion. I need to live my own life and be distanced a little from him emotionally, and the distance is the only way I can see that happening.
How many times have I used the words distance here?
Still excited about the move, just feeling a little sad and maybe scared today that a part of my life is coming to an end -Even though I know the future holds bright things.
"Fear not for the future, weep not for the past."
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deleriumflight:
I know this might be hard for you, but just leave and don't tell him when...he needs to learn to live without you and maybe he can realize how much of a jerk he was to you and that you deserve so much better and a hell of alot more...check out Denver...get more fantastic pics and live your life babe without the snag...i'm pullin for ya 
nancy_boy:
hey no talk'n behind my back 
shes right though 
shes right though