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Tuesday May 06, 2008

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Well Life has smiled on me over the weekend and I have been reminded how damn lucky I am to be married to the most amazing, considerate, compassionate woman.....she deserves so much better than I give her.
Thank You my Love for hanging on in there love
She took me out sun night and I got soooo drunk...apparantly I was very amusing/annoying in equal measures....bad hangover all day monday.....still a bit rough todayfrown
I have been very depressed latley....can't really put my finger on why........i just think I have a tendancy to crash and fall into a dark place sometimes....very hard to pull myself out once I am there....and once there everything is dark....work, love, health....I just see how f@cked it all is.... i retreat from the world and all becomes very bleak....i get so angry.........its weird...i have done a lot of therapeutic work on myself over the years and yet this self knowledge never prevents me from sinking under....maybe it helps to pull me out again?? This weekend however I believe something very fundamental shifted in my consciousness. I felt a clarity around my partner that I had not felt for a long time...we have lived apart for 2 years...we both like our own space...the relationship has struggled to adjust to this new way and I had been seriously considering walking away from it...but this weekend I just felt so much love...so clear...like ...how can I not see...How can I not feel this all the time....its another beginning I guess....i know there will come times when its dark again...its been like that all my life...I get depressed....but can I hold onto this new core feeling when all around is bleak.....time will tell. Thank you all for your supportive words and messages of late.
S'funny but when I was at my lowest ebb this was a place I still felt I could come and try to communicate....I think it pulled me out of my stupour.Yay for internets....they is ur frenz smile

Another shot from the waterfall series.......enjoy.

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apydiagirls:
Hey, thanks for the kind comment! No problem, hope you have fun trying out the technique! I think your water shots are excellent btw, I've never had much success with that kind of shot, good work! : )
May 13, 2008
sockpuppet:
heya

I ran across this by chance; thought you might be interested.
May 22, 2008

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