Well Life has smiled on me over the weekend and I have been reminded how damn lucky I am to be married to the most amazing, considerate, compassionate woman.....she deserves so much better than I give her.
Thank You my Love for hanging on in there
She took me out sun night and I got soooo drunk...apparantly I was very amusing/annoying in equal measures....bad hangover all day monday.....still a bit rough today
I have been very depressed latley....can't really put my finger on why........i just think I have a tendancy to crash and fall into a dark place sometimes....very hard to pull myself out once I am there....and once there everything is dark....work, love, health....I just see how f@cked it all is.... i retreat from the world and all becomes very bleak....i get so angry.........its weird...i have done a lot of therapeutic work on myself over the years and yet this self knowledge never prevents me from sinking under....maybe it helps to pull me out again?? This weekend however I believe something very fundamental shifted in my consciousness. I felt a clarity around my partner that I had not felt for a long time...we have lived apart for 2 years...we both like our own space...the relationship has struggled to adjust to this new way and I had been seriously considering walking away from it...but this weekend I just felt so much love...so clear...like ...how can I not see...How can I not feel this all the time....its another beginning I guess....i know there will come times when its dark again...its been like that all my life...I get depressed....but can I hold onto this new core feeling when all around is bleak.....time will tell. Thank you all for your supportive words and messages of late.
S'funny but when I was at my lowest ebb this was a place I still felt I could come and try to communicate....I think it pulled me out of my stupour.Yay for internets....they is ur frenz
Another shot from the waterfall series.......enjoy.
Thank You my Love for hanging on in there
She took me out sun night and I got soooo drunk...apparantly I was very amusing/annoying in equal measures....bad hangover all day monday.....still a bit rough today
I have been very depressed latley....can't really put my finger on why........i just think I have a tendancy to crash and fall into a dark place sometimes....very hard to pull myself out once I am there....and once there everything is dark....work, love, health....I just see how f@cked it all is.... i retreat from the world and all becomes very bleak....i get so angry.........its weird...i have done a lot of therapeutic work on myself over the years and yet this self knowledge never prevents me from sinking under....maybe it helps to pull me out again?? This weekend however I believe something very fundamental shifted in my consciousness. I felt a clarity around my partner that I had not felt for a long time...we have lived apart for 2 years...we both like our own space...the relationship has struggled to adjust to this new way and I had been seriously considering walking away from it...but this weekend I just felt so much love...so clear...like ...how can I not see...How can I not feel this all the time....its another beginning I guess....i know there will come times when its dark again...its been like that all my life...I get depressed....but can I hold onto this new core feeling when all around is bleak.....time will tell. Thank you all for your supportive words and messages of late.
S'funny but when I was at my lowest ebb this was a place I still felt I could come and try to communicate....I think it pulled me out of my stupour.Yay for internets....they is ur frenz
Another shot from the waterfall series.......enjoy.
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