Apparently, admitting that you don't know what you want from a relationship with men openly over the internet is the fastest way to realizing what you want.
After admitting that yesterday, it all came together quite rapidly.
What I don't want...
I don't want to have a "fuck buddy" or to be "friends with benefits". Not that there is anything wrong with anyone who chooses this. I think everyone has the right to do whatever feels like the right thing to do for them. It is just not for me, personally.
I don't want to meet that guy that pretends to be interested in me as a whole just to get to the sex. I hate that guy. Please, don't waste my time. And I will figure it out before you get to the sex anyway, so you are wasting your time too.
I think if you just want to find someone to fuck, just say it straight away & we can move on with our lives. Because if you try to trick me & I figure it out (& I will)... Trust me. You will be sorry.
So, onto what I DO want...
What I want is a real connection based on more then just sex. Now, this connection doesn't necessary have to lead to marriage or lead to anything in particular... & it especially shouldn't lead to living together anytime soon... it just has to be REAL. It doesn't have to be "destiny" or "soul mates" but it has to be something more then physical satisfaction & sexual needs being met. It has to be more then manipulation to get to what you want. It has to be more then two bored people filling their time til they met "The One". I want to absorbed the whole experience. The person's mind, not just their body.
As for the kind of people (romantic interests & friends) that I like, it is listed on my myspace on the main page. Take a looky & see if you want.
As for the three (yes three *sigh*) I would be with right now if I could, but I can't... Two of them is my own stupid supa'h freakout fault. I am such a idiot. One is just circumstances (yes, I am talking about you, Mr. L). I can't change any of it. Or, rather, I don't feel much like humiliating myself to find out if I can change any of it. I have felt this way about them, so it is totally logical to believe that I can feel this way again about someone else. No need to beat a dead horse. I will let them go. It is only fair to me... & to them... & to the next one out there.
I suppose in the long run I really do want that soul mate thing though. What? It could happen!
After admitting that yesterday, it all came together quite rapidly.
What I don't want...
I don't want to have a "fuck buddy" or to be "friends with benefits". Not that there is anything wrong with anyone who chooses this. I think everyone has the right to do whatever feels like the right thing to do for them. It is just not for me, personally.
I don't want to meet that guy that pretends to be interested in me as a whole just to get to the sex. I hate that guy. Please, don't waste my time. And I will figure it out before you get to the sex anyway, so you are wasting your time too.
I think if you just want to find someone to fuck, just say it straight away & we can move on with our lives. Because if you try to trick me & I figure it out (& I will)... Trust me. You will be sorry.
So, onto what I DO want...
What I want is a real connection based on more then just sex. Now, this connection doesn't necessary have to lead to marriage or lead to anything in particular... & it especially shouldn't lead to living together anytime soon... it just has to be REAL. It doesn't have to be "destiny" or "soul mates" but it has to be something more then physical satisfaction & sexual needs being met. It has to be more then manipulation to get to what you want. It has to be more then two bored people filling their time til they met "The One". I want to absorbed the whole experience. The person's mind, not just their body.
As for the kind of people (romantic interests & friends) that I like, it is listed on my myspace on the main page. Take a looky & see if you want.
As for the three (yes three *sigh*) I would be with right now if I could, but I can't... Two of them is my own stupid supa'h freakout fault. I am such a idiot. One is just circumstances (yes, I am talking about you, Mr. L). I can't change any of it. Or, rather, I don't feel much like humiliating myself to find out if I can change any of it. I have felt this way about them, so it is totally logical to believe that I can feel this way again about someone else. No need to beat a dead horse. I will let them go. It is only fair to me... & to them... & to the next one out there.
I suppose in the long run I really do want that soul mate thing though. What? It could happen!
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As for the whole soulmates thing, it could happen I guess, though it seems to be one of those things that you hear about but never see.