Do you remember that a few weeks ago i wrote something about my missing cat and how sad i was about that... we were looking for my girl and after all we accepted that she was gone? You can even see that little winged @ at the top of this page... well, that was on her memory...

The thing is that last week i went to my hometown cause i had some issues to solve... Exams, etc... regular stuff, but in my absence, my dog Baileys got sick and died...

It was a one week absence... one week... 6 days to be precise...
She died on Friday morning...

I'm feeling quite shitty right now... I guess it's a mix of everything...
Yesterday i was about to have a car accident... i got home and called my mom cause i was feeling disturbed enough to not come back to the city i currently live in...
Later that day i called back and ask her for my dog... and she started crying, it was horrible... she told me all about it...

I'm feeling really sad, people, I feel like i can't stand it anymore... I can't cope with it... I'm not smart enough, I'm not strong enough, i'm not though enough...
I don't want to deal with stupid people saying 'it was just a dog' anymore, i don't wanna deal with stupid people not knowing what to do or what to say...

I'm sad... really sad...
I don't want anything, anymore...




I know that sometimes i am a bad person, just like everybody is at times, i know i am a mess, but why does the universe have to mess with them... why does it have to be all broken all the time...?