kou

Why can't things be just ok?
Why can't i have a regular life? Why does everything have to be this complicated?
I feel like i'm disappointing everyone who knows me, and there's still more coming.. There's still people i need to talk to. And i'm feeling like i'm a complete bitch. Last two weeks everything made sense to me, all the pain, every single thing in the universe made sense, but no matter how much i promise this time things will be different, it seems like you don't believe in me. I know i've done a lot of bad things in the past, but, i'm not the same person i was 3 years ago, i've been through a lot, and i've changed a lot.
The worst part of this is that i feel like i can't trust anyone now. I feel so damn trashy.

I feel so pathetic and insignificat, like a little ant fighting against the world.
Still, i'm sure of what i feel, still i'm sure that i'm brave enough to sacrifice somethings just for you. I still feel you here.
Please, please, plase, don't go again... 3 years was more than enough for us to grow up.