kottonkandy

well im sitting in bed and everything seems pretend. i just found out today that the program that pays for my apartment is closing in 30 days and i dont know what i'm going to do. right now i dont have a job because i cant really manage school as it is without one. theres no way i'm going to be able to afford my apartment since im not working and there really isnt anywhere else for me to go. i cant just "go back home" like everyone else can. i'm meeting with my lawyer on thursday to see whats going to happen now. i'm scared to death cause i don't have any family and my best friend lives with her mum in an apartment that's smaller than mine so i can't live there.
i was thinking about moving to texas. one of my best friends lives there and he said i could stay with him for a while. i'm about to lose my place, i'm failing out of school, there's nothing here for me. the only guy who's worth while is 2 hours away and best case scenario i can see him on weekends. i just feel like maybe if i go then i might actually have a chance to do something good for myself. maybe i'll be able to find a good job and start school again there. moving across the country just seems so scary, but it feels like something i should at least try. i'm just trying to find home and i'm scared to death.